I WAS BLESSED BY ALLAH ALMIGHTY
(Note : Mai Sirf 18 ka houn Lekin Meri story bohot beri hai isliyai Mai chapters Mai btounga Thanks)
CHAPTER 1: "MY FATHER AND MOTHER"
my mother aik chekwal Kai gaon Mai paida hoyai . Mera nana itnai Ameer Thai Kai purai goan ki pheli gari lay Lekin we Pagal hogaya Thai :(. Meri nani blind thin isliyai Meri mama Meri nani Kai Sath Meri nani ka papa Kai gher rahin . My father was actually born in Sindh (proudly saying merai papa purai Pakistan Kai seb sai zeda hoslai or seber walai admi hain bes pertai jao).meri mama Kai koi siblings nhi thai . Merai papa Kai bahoiyun nai onsai begar pochai onki bohot so zameens bech din Lekin merai papa nai Kuch nhi kaha kiunkai we berai.papa Jeb shahdi sai phelai aik Afghanistan gay or job ki . Onhoun aik din call ayi or onko sebsai bersi Bhai Jo onsai 20 Sall berai Thai onhoun nai bataya Kai mera dada phot hogay hain Lekin os bat ko Kisi merai papa ko bataya hi nhi is bat ko 18 din hogay Thai Jeb papa ko call sebnai papa ko mama Kiya Kai ab we phot hogay hain to met ayain Lekin papa seb chor ker begai passport Kai wapis agay or apnai papa ki qeber dekhi.merai papa or mama Kai Shadi late hoi thi . Jeb onki shahdi hoi to Meri mama Kai mama phoot hogin phir merai parents Kai do bechai hoyai or wo bhi phoot hogai . Meri mama yai berdasht na kerpain or onko mental issu hogaya . After that my big brother was born alhumdulillah .
Chapter 2: "MY FATHER"
my father deserve a sperate chapter . Because he never loose hope even when his father died or even when his brothers sold his plots without his permission . After that my mother got mental issue (idk how but my mother thinks my father is her enemy and believe me it's very unsettling)so she fight with my father everyday my father never gave . I remember day when my father sold my mother's golden jewellery set for her mental condition and it helped a lot my mother got much better and just because of my father this action my mother never went to mental hospital alhumdulillah.when my father sold the set and my mother was in hospital my father take me and my other two big brother with him to hospital . We were so young so he can't left us alone . At that I remember although I was only 2 to 3 hardly but I still remember my father holding three of us walking in the hospital hallway in the way of my mother . He took us to nearby hotel holding three of us in the big crowd and bought dinner and gave us (I can't I am crying while writing this how can be. A man this strong ) that was so sad man I just want to go back in time and help my father . His hard work didn't end there .then we moved to different location near Pakistan and india border . My mother mental health gets worse there (these was best and worst years of my life ) (my mother was not bad there is not. a single fault of my mother she had mental issues ) my mother gives galiyan to my father fight with him everytime even when he comes back from working hard my mother can't make good food so he can't even eat good . My father had not parents nor rny elder not even my mother had parents and siblings .there was no one for us but our father . He is the greatest man I have seen in my life .
Chapter 3: "MY STORY"
NOW my story begins I went to school in that area . made no friends got bullied every day and then I also failed my 2 class (my 1 got wasted)I had no regrets I don't know why then I studied 2 class again and it was good class I studied there till 4th class (my mother also thinked that her died son and daughter is alive and some old doctor exchanged them so my mother always wanted to search for them ) that's why when I was in 3rd class my father had a posting to Lahore (my mother was happy because she can search for her kids if she was in Lahore . / but the posting got cancelled my mother shouted everyone listened she gives galiyan to my father and shouted like a mental for straight 10 to 15 mins (that was one of the most disturbing moments of my life's ) therefore we had good time in the area . when I passed 4th class we moved to our goan (we was just going for vacation but because of crona virus my father stayed in that area and me my two brothers and mother went to our goan) . it was a life changing momment for me . in the village my mother did much things that disturbed us all. we eated very stuff from local shops that destroyed our health's we all got some type of bacteria I don't know . ( I remember once we didn't have money so my mother ask for my brothers medicine and tubes to her cousin that was also disturbing for me )
(there was a painting at our village house of my father I always looked at it and cry so my father comeback my big brother was the second maturest guy he did everything for us make us laugh and everything thanks to him) after that when we come back my father rented a house in Lahore (my mother's mentals health gets worst there so landlord asked to move from his house and we did ) we rented a new house . and I did my 5 and 6 class there and gues what I got failed in seven again (wasted my second year ) it was also very disturbing for me I had so much good friend and I left behind I I can't I still want to get back in time and get pass and read with then again .(I get so disturbed I asked my father to ask to principle to pass me and allow me to read in 8) but he didn't I always looked at our of window to my school thinking my father will come to school to ask principle for me . (but that didn't happend I was. so bad that I blamed my father for this I don't know but I hate me for ignoring my father for that for days ) (this was mental break down for me I watched some YouTube videos about escaping from house . I don't how did I forget my father mother my sibling sacrifices they made for me but I ran away from the house with my phone . my heart beated so hard while running I didn't knew what was I doing I was afraid . after running for 1 hour straight thanks to Allah I remember what my family especially my father did for me I droped my phone and broke my sim and thankfully return to my home .I told them I don't remember what happend and they thinked it was kidnapping because of my phone or somethings and no one know this truth else me till Now)but as you know time passes so it does . I get used to it.msde new friend in my class and sit and enjoy with my real friend after class in break and other time .
Chapter 4 :"MY PROBLEMS"
i am thankfull for my life but I have every problem you can imagine there are so many problems I can't handle them someone plz guide me.
My problems:
1becouse they think I was kidnapped they never let me go out not to even neebry shop alone what do I do
2my eye sight is weak my parents don't know about it . it is 2.5 I can't read anything in my class I don't want to tell my parents and stress them more.
3i have man boobs I can't reduce them because my father don't let me go alone even for joging or JYM what to do :(
4i am only 5.5 Idk why my both brothers are nearly 6 it hurts me :(
5my real friend are now in collage and I am in school you know what this means :(
6i think there is also a issue with my kidney but I can't problems to my parents they are already stressed very much :(
6i masturbate and I can't leave it teens will understand me :(
7my hairs are getting white because of tension how to stop them :(
8my hairline is getting worse :(
9eveyr where I go even with real friend I think I don't fit :(
10i am second friend to everyone no one is my real best friend you know how that feels :(
11my father don't teach me to drive because of bad condition of other students driving :(
12 there is no one I can really talk to :(
13 I have no sister nor female friend zero girl experience I want sister I really want a sister :(
14 half of my cousins are kids and half have kids what do I do :(
15my 9th board happen and it dident go well iw I'll get seply in chem and math I think :(
16my father married late he was 42 when I was born i am the youngest he is now 60 and I am 18 you know younger child's what I am talking the fear of him dieing so soon I prey and everyone please prey he don't go anywhere he don't leave us we can't do anything without him plz :(
chaptet 5: "Siblings"
i have two brother one is 2 year old me he is exact copy of my father he is very mature most mature of all three os us prey 5 times very good he handles my mother and cares about my father most he is also good in study I think he is going through more problems then me but I can only say he have good life .
my second brother the one who took care of us at our village house got mental issues just like my mother this thing broke me :( he has got so much fat do nothing he has not that deeper issue like my mother but something is going with him I don't know I don't know much because I am the youngest child I think he thinks he can't do snythings he even take out money from my father wallet that broke me the one who took care of us when he was only in 8th is now 22 and do nothing steel money from my father wallet and eat junk from shop noodles and he drinked that much energy drinks in oast few years he got yarqaan I can't explain this :(
i never think I will tell my story to anyone but some kids are making fun of me in school wo hi Yar Kai vulgar batain krna slap me for fun like that I know I can't stand for me I can't tell anyone what's his limits that's the problem with me I am at my limits I need to tell someone or I will get mentals I didn't tell you half of my problem just think all the text you read is just half of my problems I can't tell you remaining problems (one more things few months ago my mobile got broken when I try to root it it took 2.5 mont until it gets repaired . in that days I had nothing to do there was weekend from schools no friend just wake up eat our tv was broken I had nothing to do one day I was kaykng on bed and I noticed I am going mental like my brother and mother's I started to worry I then knew i have to do something for it so I try diiffern things I prayed and did. more thinks thankly I am good and my mobile got rapied thanks good I am in my fully controls )
ayone please what do I do please tell me how to help my family help myself plz this was it if you read the whole story Hats of to you man or women :)
HATS OF TO MY FATHER (THE GREATEST MAN I HAVE SAW I DIDNT TELL YOU HALF OF HIS HARD WORKS SND STRUGGLES PLEASE PREY FOR HIM TO HAVE A GOOD LIFE