u/GT172

It’s been 6 months since we broke up yet every night before I sleep I’m just rushed with memories of us. Nothing feels the same anymore, I can’t enjoy life the same way I used to, I can’t go a solid 10 minutes without thinking of her at least one time. It’s seriously fucking with me now because it’s been so long and she’s just out here living her best life, seeing other people and going on vacations etc yet I’m just here constantly thinking about her in a compulsive manner.

I can’t even sleep the same anymore, I’ve been super hesitant to talk to other girls as well I just feel walled off, I feel like it would be for the best to just hookup with someone but I’m so mentally distraught over this situation that it bleeds through all my interactions and I fear Im not even in the right place to meet somebody right now.

What do I do? Is there some cheat code or something? I’ve been going to the gym, making solid progress, I got a new job that I’m really excited about, I’ve been reintegrating socially and making new friends etc. yet deep down I feel so pathetic because of this, it’s stripping me of all my self esteem and I just want to rid myself of this obsession I have with thinking about her 24/7.

I have a lot of inner work to do on myself. I grew up in a country with a super small social net so when I was socialised with my childhood friend group they were a bunch of straight guys just like me, growing up we would always make gay jokes, and use completely vile and dehumanising language towards LGBTQ individuals and I was super not inclusive up until honestly right now?

Right now Im integrating into a new friend group, im trying to expand my horizons and open up and become an ally and honestly its just the bare minimum of being a tolerant human being but when hanging out with this new friend group I always get flash backs to not so long ago where I would completely dehumanise and be intolerant to LGBTQ individuals. I partly feel like im wearing a mask when im with them because I know if they knew how I talked and acted with my straight friends none of them would want to be around my presence.

Im also half black/ half white in a Nordic country so I often felt “othered” by the people here which makes me feel even worse because the one thing I’ve noticed about LGBTQ people anecdotally is that they will not tolerate bigotry in front of their face whereas your average edgy straight male will act accepting to your face but then have a myriad of closeted hateful beliefs and prejudices that they spill behind closed doors. I don’t want to be like that anymore, I don’t want to have some cringe reborn again identity either, I just want to erase all this stupid ass programming that I grew up with and be the bare minimum accepting human being that I know I should be.

Hello everybody, I am entering this industry as someone with pretty extensive entrepreneurial experience and business experience but the caveat is I do not have a college degree.

I am going through an initial training period which is quite extensive to be honest but from what I’ve noticed the majority of my fellow trainees have college degrees which I do not possess. From what I’ve seen so far I am slowly falling in love with the industry, I love the fast paced nature and the opportunities for growth seem to be there for people who display competency and consistency. I’m just wondering from people with more experience what I can expect, any advice tips, I’m wondering if I should start to pursue an online degree so I can have better opportunities to move up into higher leverage positions later on etc. Thanks!