lifetime (reimagined)
This song always reminds me of you.
You know how much I loved you… how willing I was to take risks just to be with you. I thought leaving the country would help me forget you. I thought distance could erase the memories we shared, but I guess I was wrong.
Before I left, it was still you that I chose. It was always you. I wanted to spend my life with you. But maybe God really didn’t want us to end up together.
I know there are parts of you that hate me. I know you probably see me as your worst ex because of everything we went through. I hurt you, and you hurt me too. You made me believe you had so many flings, thinking it would hurt me. But honestly? Even if you find someone new, I could never stop loving you.
Every memory we shared still stays with me. I can’t forget any of it.
I’m writing this because you’ve been appearing in my dreams lately, and I don’t even know why. The truth is, I’ve tried my best not to think about you. I really tried. But why do you still find your way back into my mind?
Maybe because I never fully let you go.
Thinking about you being with someone else doesn’t hurt me anymore. But not being with you? That’s the kind of pain I can’t explain.
You really were a good dream, just like the song says. What a good dream you were, Boo
I don’t know if I’ll ever see you again. But until now, I still pray that somehow, someday, it could still be you and me.
I really loved you. Maybe I loved you more than you ever loved me. Maybe ako nalang yung may gusto ng “tayo.” Ako nalang yung kumakapit habang ikaw, matagal nang bumitaw.
And maybe love shouldn’t feel this lonely.
Wherever life takes you, please know that my love for you was real. Every action, every effort, every word, I meant all of it genuinely.
I will always pray for you.
- XIII