I hate my life
I hate my life and honestly wish I could die sometimes. I always wanted to be married and be a father but now I’m turning 30 and I can tell you the last time I had a date, that was went doctor strange 2 came out the day of and she sent me an email that she didn’t want to see me.
I think I just have to come to terms with the fact that one I am extremely ugly downright hideous, I’m so ugly that I can be cast as a live action Quasimodo without the make up. I’m overweight and trying to loose weight I really am, I try talking to woman but they shudder in horror when I try and just talk to them.
I’m frustrated because I look at my friends and my male cousins and they have what I want, money a wife family and I’m stuck at home because my parents don’t want me to move out but I spend to much money. Maybe I should just cut up my credit card and just stuff all my emotions down and become utterly cold like I did for a year when I was in high school.
It would also probably help if I didn’t make the stupid decision when I was young to save myself for marriage, it was a stupid decision that I thought was smart at the time but it’s not, I’m probably never getting married and I should just get a lady of the night in Vegas just so I can see how it feels.
Honestly if anyone is reading this please I need advice, everyday I’m coming close to just taking a model knife that I have and start giving myself scars and cuts? I can’t live like this anymore and if it wasn’t for my nephew I would probably blow my brains out.
I have attached a photo of my fave so you can all see the horror of my face