I want to do things right this time
met this guy maybe a little over a week ago? We have mutual people we know but didn’t meet through those people . We were actually already friends on FB . He seems nice , we have hung out twice now . First time we went for a walk in a local park in the town we live , im a yapper so the conversations were great ,he’s been wonderful, its also wonderful to talk to someone who also chats back with you an doesn’t just respond with surface level stuff. Nothing worse than a boring conversation. Personally i wanna know everything and why you think it went that way . I am a 23YF and he’s a 22YM . The first time we hung out we had to cut it short because it started pouring down and taking cover in the shelter house didn’t help . Fast forward we rescheduled and went out this past weekend to a more collage centered town . All the bars were open and it wasn’t crazy busy . We hit a few bars , listened to some live music and then we wondered for a bit , eventually made it back to the live music, took a few more shots and we started getting more chatty . We were both definitely tipsy but not black out by any means . We got to talking about life and what he wanted to do with his future , his goals and dreams . As well as mine . Started talking about our lives growing up and he got to talking about his mental struggles . Which i enjoyed , I enjoy a vulnerable person especially when it comes to mental health . You don’t feel the pressure i guess ,a lot of people i feel like say they get it but then when it comes down to it and you are actually struggling with these things ,it’s like a burden to them or they simply just can’t handle it. He has schizoeffective disorder , which im not familiar with . I did my research on it though , I just have Mdd , but i fear that may make things complicated if things continue to move forward? maybe i’m just worrying ,i do that a lot .
Logically speaking Im afraid i’ll screw this up like my last relationship. I emotionally drained him with my mental health and i mean a lot of major things played into that. I don’t want to repeat that though and i fear with the mental health struggles we both have it could lead to nothing but disappointment? My medication has helped a lot , it’s been an ongoing battle with medication and i realize medication can only do so much the rest is you