Just went to commencement this month, but Im not taking grad pics until mid-June. I know the return window for grad rentals is 7-10 days after the ceremony, but I havent been charged yet so...
If I return late, do I get a refund or is the damage done? Is there any value in calling them and asking to return after my pics, like an extension?
This kid is so cute T^T And his acting is great! I didn't expect him to have such a big role in the story when I first started, but he's lowkey my favorite character now haha. I think the actor and show writers found the perfect balance of someone raised with the knowledge that they have no superior but also, he's just a kid, bro. For every wise or authoritative moment, there's a reminder that he wants to play games and looks up to Yanyun and Ye Xian like older brothers/uncles. It's also welcome relief from the tension of court politics. I just love this little guy. More adorable young nobility please!
I've dealt with depression and anxiety at varying degrees over the past 15 years. The worst was when I was ready to end it in 2011, then a steady descent into despair from December 2021 to April 2022. The in-between has been bearable/neutral, and my anxiety has gotten noticeably better, but I really struggle to think of a period when my baseline feeling was happiness/ content/ satisfaction with life. And when I last saw my PCP in February, she asked if I had interest in medication. I said no because I thought my depression was environmental (home life, family), so I'd be better once I got my own place and started going no contact. What's the point of meds if I'm still in a poor environment? But I've realized 2 things since then:
I've already started going no contact with some people and confronted my parents about part of my trauma, but I felt basically no relief from that. So just how environmental is my depression?
I have maladaptive thinking about life in general, so...
And I keep thinking about something one of my psych professors said my senior year: you don't have to be at rock bottom before you ask for help. Prevention is the best medicine as they say.
Also, I've been going to therapy for a few months, but I'm still unsure how much it's helping since I had a bad month this past April. I was sad, but more than anything, it was more an "I'm so tired, I can't do anything" and anhedonia depressive episode, which I don't normally have.
So, I guess my question is: what was your trigger/sign to start an antidepressant?
Because if I'm able to get by more often than not, and I can look forward to things and still have moments of joy, maybe I don't need it and the possible side effects. And I just work on building the life I want, slow and steady.
But I also know that, inevitably, I'm going to have very low lows when the depression does strike. And that I'm going to ruminate excessively over every social interaction I have for the foreseeable future.
TLDR: Am I just coping and the depression's actually always there and I just got so used to it that I forgot what life feels like without it and should just take a dang medication T-T