what to do
every day i feel like im ready to go, i wake up and feel no excitement for the day. i remember all the things i need to do to keep myself going and alive. im exhausted, and it feels like it is never going to end. i just want to wake up and feel happy or full of energy like those around me. i suffer from a chronic illness that is progressive, i have had it all my life and i feel like it has control over my life in a way that is interfering with any decision i make. i’m tired, stuck, uninterested, and defeated. i have absolutely no motivation anymore. i have cried for help on more than one occasion to my family and friends and at this point i think they are all over it, and me.
in every way i am ready to be done but what is it that i am trying to end? my life?
that doesn’t feel right
im scared and tired.
edit: i’m 29, Female with chronic pulmonary hypertension.