I have a problem
Im not sure if im in the right place but i just need advice I am very confused and I think I just got my self in to such a big mess let me start from the beginning I have a addiction im not to sure if its haram or not if it is haram its like smoking level haram anyways I wanted something so badly and I said "if I get that thing that i want I will stop with this addiction" long story short I got that thing that I wanted and I never stopped with my addiction I tride to stop but its just very hard every time I do that addiction I give a big amount of money to poor as a apologize to Allah and I do say some prayers as a sorry and I do feel regretfully at the end I said "if I dont stop with this addiction I want this bad thing to happen to me" I tought to my self if i put this fear in me i will stop long story short I haven't stopped and every time I do that addiction as a apologize I give a even bigger amount of money to the poor but that bad thing hasn't happend to me yet I kainda fear of it alot I dont know what to do like I said that addiction isnt harmful to anybody neither I think its haram if it is haram is like smoking haram but im very lost maybe im going crazy maybe this is all in my head please someone with expirance can some one help me?