Am I just shallow? I feel too dumb to understand things
I (20F) have been observing this about myself for a while. I feel dumb during discussions about movies, books, or politics. It's like I can't form an opinion about anything! Even if I do, it's a very shallow and weak one. I read books rarely, but even when I do, it's like I don't grasp the complete essence of it. I'm unsure of how to even judge a piece of art/media. My reaction to any movie is just "oh nice". I feel like I'm just unable to grasp anything.
Even when it comes to politics, I've tried to understand the different sides but I just feel so lost. Different people with different opinions confuse me further. I am in awe of people that can understand something so deeply and express that understanding in a structured manner because I've never been able to. What's worse is that I get swayed by these different opinions so I don't have a strong stance on anything. I feel like I just don't have a sense of identity because of this.
I don't know, I just wish I could understand things as deeply as some people can. I want to be able to because I've realised that I've been pretty privileged so far in my life which is why I haven't had to think about politics or other real world shit until now. But I wanna be knowledgeable and able to understand and convey the same understandings clearly.
I'm not looking for any sympathy, just advice on how to work on this. Please help me if you can!