Any ideas for this?
Hey reddid community, I think this is my first post and I don't know if I'm doing it right but here I go:
I got my mother's birthday tattooed when she was very sick and I was around 19 at the time. At this point it felt right, because I loved her so much and was afraid of losing her to breast cancer.
Fast forward I realized the whole family dynamics is fucked. She's manipulative, let me grow up in a hoarder household (she not only collected waste but eventually also cats - the smell was unbearable) and neglected me as a child - I only saw these negative things after meeting my husband and after we had our first daughter. After many many years of therapy I learned that what she did to me wasn't what mothers are supposed to do to their children... Only when my first daughter was born I was able to feel the loss of a person who was supposedly my mother, but never aced like one. It crushed me how much I love and cherish my (now) two girls, how I would do anything for them - but she wasn't doing, wouldn't do and won't do anything for me, ever. Not even talking about it. So I cut contact about three years ago and it was the best decision I ever made.
I need it gone. Do any of you have any ideas or suggestions? I really like flowers, but a Phoenix would be nice as well. Is it even possible?