u/Imaginary-Lychee7543

So lately I've been feeling really lonely with my new job I don't know any people in the town I live in and I work ten hours five days a week which is pretty normal for my country the problem is I feel like I live at work and that besides that and my phone I have nothing else to do

It annoys me so much and I can't even do anything about it I try to go for walks before or after work but I'm so honest right now it's exhausting and I can't even go anywhere after work cause my towns dead and I'd have to drive thirty minutes to the city I'm so hopeless rn I'm only 19 man this is shit

So when I was seventeen I was talking to someone and he always was begging me for nudes or sexting and stuff so one day I gave in cause well I wanted to be nice? I thought he might stop cause I really liked him and it bothered me he used to say that it's just his way of showing me that he likes me he also jerked off to pictures of me? And then sent me a video of it I remembered this today and for some reason it just left this hollow feeling inside of me and honestly I just feel like throwing up after I remembered the day I gave in