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Last night I was in a very dangerous position regarding my mental health. I am on multiple prescription medications for various things and I was in bed ready to take all of them. I posted here in a point of desperation and as a last resort I decided to reach out on here. The amount of love and support was overwhelming. So many of you flooded my post and inbox with supportive and helpful messages. I want to express how very grateful I am. I was not aware of how amazing this community was. You all, voluntarily, saved me in a time of crises, in the early hours of the morning. I don’t know how to express my gratitude but i am so very grateful to you all. I just had a wonderful evening with my Mum because you guys helped me pull myself together. Thank you from the bottom of my heart. I will try to respond to your comments and messages as soon as possible. I am very lucky to be a part of this community. Thank you ❤️

I don’t want to do this anymore. There is nothing wrong with me besides epilepsy and depression. I just don’t have the will to live anymore, I don’t have any energy left. I am under the thumb of seizures and brain injuries, no escaping it. I don’t understand how to live life or how to enjoy anything anymore. The worst part is that I am so young, 25 years old. No hopeful quotes or self help books help but I appreciate the sentiment by those that offer it. Everyone around me punches down unnecessarily. I barely speak to anyone now. Family are dropping like flies from cancer, suicide or old age. The most helpful thing I heard from a therapist is to “think positively” or “go for a walk outside” I don’t know what to do. I am going to leave soon.