u/Leeann485

Was put on celexa in 2016 for postpartum depression and anxiety. Off and on that until I tapered off, probably too fast in Aug 2021 and by January 2022 I was having never ending cycles of panic and anxiety like id never experienced before. Was put on zoloft at that time and stayed on until November 2025 where I stopped cold turkey at 25mg after tapering down from 50mg.

I recently quit thc at the beginning of January 2026 and life since that point has been an uphill battle. Lots of panic and anxiety at the start. That subsided with the help of our lord and savior but it's been a struggle of depression and anxiety. I feel like a shell of myself, I look in the mirror and dont recognize myself. Im a mom and a wife and it kills me to not feel like I can get up in the morning and emotionally provide for my family. Just the bare minimum of surviving the day. No drive, no desire, no motivation. Just surviving. Finally cracked and made an appointment to get put back on zoloft next week. With that comes the fear of never getting off the med again. Once your on your on for life. Its never ending.

Juat looking for shared experiences or similar feelings. Just feeling defeated at this point.

Thanks for reading my post.

If I could sum up the quitting weed experience in a few words it would be Sobercoaster.

I quit in January and this has been the most up and down, left and right experience ive ever gone through. The withdrawl was absolutely brutal psychologically. Panic attacks, anhedonia, anxiety, depression. Lately, lots of repressed emotions from past trauma coming up and learning to ride those waves.

For context, im a 36/f stay at home mom, step mom of 20 years who homeschools. No immediate family in the state. Just me, my husband and 9 yr old child.

Im finding myself now in a season of self discovery. After years of thc use and m3ds ive noticed how much I put my needs and wants last over the last decade, as many moms do. A lot of it was a survival strategy. Lots of childhood trauma that echoed into my adult life, but now that im feeling emotions again and not running or muting my problems I realized I have to look in the mirror and start taking care of myself now, emotionally. Sounds dumb but the ladder is remaining in isolation and feeling like life is happening around me rather than to me. Ive spent the last 2 months thinking there was something wrong with me, medically. Depression or panic, contemplating going back on m3ds not really leaving my house or moving my body besides house chores. Feeling disconnected from friends and reality. Started therapy.But the truth and the antidote hit me like a ton of bricks..

Rediscovery. Being sober hasnt been easy to sit with but its now time to find who iam again. Ive created a life that accommodated weed and that life doesnt align with me any more. Asking myself what would make me happy to go do. What would my inner child happy? And going with that. Getting out of my house and into the world with my kid and doing new life experiences together.

Im not sure why this revelation is coming on late. Maybe because ive spent so long thinking theres something wrong with me and getting lost in that fog. Might have some cptsd going on as well.

But is there anyone who has gotten to where im currently at?

Anyone who has had a similar experience being a late bloomer in the Rediscovery department. Any moms out there who are now learning who they are and what they enjoy outside of the home with their kid?