Gosh I honestly don't even know where to start. I am 25 years old and still living at home unfortunately. I feel like I'm slowly becoming so lost in every area of my life. I pray for clarity and relief every single day. So, I moved back home in 2022 to study for the LSAT and I have not done well at all. I've taken it 3 times and I'm just not getting it. I am taking it really hard because I've always been an overachiever unfortunately and this is the first time I have truly had significant difficulty with. I honestly don't even know where to go from here. (Not going to law school is not an option lol) I want to be a lawyer truly, so please don't say “give up or maybe law isn't for you” because I truly know it's my purpose.
The next thing is work. I left my old firm of three years because I literally was being abused. They would work me like a dog but then would refuse to raise my pay. I did the job to paralegals, and I was the negotiator as well. I live in a state where the cost of living is extremely high. So, I left to go to another law firm and I absolutely hate it. It is the most boring job I have ever done in my life. This area of law is horrible, and my office is filled with miserable old attorneys who are so stuck in their ways and refuse to update any technology. THEY ARE STILL USING WORD PERFECT! (That's before Microsoft word ppl!) I want another job so bad, but I promised myself I wouldn't quit just because it was hard or stressful (IM A RETIRED HABITUAL JOB QUITTER lol) Think of Trish from Austin and Ally lol. So, I'm trying to push through till I get into law school. I've been here for about 9 months.
Next is School. After nearly four years from graduating, I said I refused to not be enrolled into school, so I started an Online MBA program in the meantime and boy is it difficult. Also, I did not know that when you take out loans for school they post on your credit report at the end of the semester. NO ONE TOLD MEEEEE. (This is my first time taking out student loans).
Overall guys I am so stressed out and have developed this sort of anxiety that I have never experienced before. I know its first world problems. Trust me I feel so guilty about complaining because I know I have been privileged and I know that the opportunity to attend school is a privilege. (I COME FROM AN IMMIGRANT HOUSEHOLD) I know I am living in answered prayers but at this moment, I am feeling a mixture of being stuck because I am not where I truly want to be but then at the same time overwhelmed by work and school. I just need some real NON-JUDGMENTAL advice right now. If you can relate to this situation, if your older and have experienced a similar situation. ANY real advice is appreciated honestly. (Please be nice lol)