So first of all, I have been in previous serious relationships and my body count was 3 before I met him, I have never felt retroactive jealousy before, even tho all my exes all had high body counts. Me and my boyfriend started dating 10 months ago and honestly I never asked him about his past, just knew he had a high body count because he said he was experienced. Then 2 weeks ago we attended his friend's wedding, his other friend said something like "yo bro surprised you locked in after all that crazy shit" It made me overthink a lot. When we got back to the car I asked him "what crazy shit was he talking about?" Then that's when I found out he used to do porn. Filmed with over 200 women. I then messaged his friend and asked him for more info and got sent to the links of those films. I threw up and felt sick for days. I don't know what to do because I love him so much, but thinking about the fact that so many people have seen him naked, and the fact he's been inside so many women. I don't think I can handle it much longer.
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The fact that's somebodys real life is just... It's so selfish. My mom has 5 baby daddies, I'm the eldest. I'm 20 now but my whole life has just been calling a different guy stepdad every 2 years. It's taken such an impact on my mental health, I have really bad attachment issues and self esteem issues. I know my siblings suffer from the same thing as well. If you're unhappy with a situation, do whats best for you and leave. But why choose to have a kid every single time.
A little context, Im attending private uni in california so it's a given that most people are gonna be rich. But omg, it's to the point I can't even have a conversation with people without being left out bc I'm broke. I had a friend group last semester but then one of them asked if we were down to go to tokyo for winter, I told them I couldn't afford it and they were like "just use the money u got from fafsa," and "cant u ask ur dad?" I dont even know who my dad is. Then they ended up going without me, now I been dropped from that group. Oh to be priviliged enough to go to a different country every break.
Jealousy is an understatement when I see girls my age going to Europe every summer, always in new clothes with their designer handbags while I grew up starving literally didn't have a single proper meal until i turned 15 bc my mom chose to keep me after my dad got arrested. And she never cared for me. I got into a good university on scholarships because I studied my ass off in highschool and that was the first time I realized how sad my own life is. I couldn't make friends in college because of my insecurities and how jealous I was of everyone around me. I don't even need to be rich, I just wish I knew what it was like to not be hungry growing up.
Like how are you offended because a teenage girl commented "she was so beautiful, rip." to a news post on tiktok about another teenage girl losing her life? I see so many replies saying "stfu read the room" or "so looks is all that matters?" Like what are yall even on about? And other people would be like "OHH YOURE GETTING COOKED ALIVE" Im just confused how some people even make it this far in the world.
I'm very insensitive, I grew up with brothers all with dark humor and we bully eachother all the time. There is nothing wrong with being sensitive ofc, but if you know you're gonna be offended by everything, why would you be friends w ppl who are just gonna make u cry and uncomfortable all the time? It's draining not only for you but them as well.
So Im on insta reels or tiktok, I see a woman lip syncing, and there's always some comments saying " mid" " makeupcel" or "chopped", and then u go on their profile to find they're genuienly the most chopped thing ever. And they're broke as well. Literally can't even pick a struggle yet have so much time to bring women down.
So first of all, I'm a broke college student. I honestly just go to group dinners for pictures and because of my FOMO. I get full easily, literally with a glass of water. When I usually hangout with my friends we all just pay for what we ordered so it's fair, but yesterday I went on a hangout with girls from our university club, they asked to split the bill evenly. They all ate so much, and I only ate a small side salad. Then the girl asked me to venmo her and I told her " can I js pay for what I ate moneys been tight" and she got mad, literally sent another girl to talk to me. Like whos in the wrong here? I ordered a $5 side with free water, she wants me to pay $35 bucks for shit I didnt even eat. I did not know they were gonna split the bill. I thought most college students just pay for their own meal. Guess im the broke one.
This rant is about my own sister. She's 18 and got pregnant with my niece last year, shes almost 6 months old now. She's the cutest girl ever but it fucking pains everytime I visit them to see the conditions the baby is raised in. Her and her bf both smoke a lot, I know for a fact that child is gonna turn out just like them. It's so selfish of trailer trash to choose to keep a child that they can't even provide for. Most future criminals were raised in this condition, I hope people stop being so selfish and let the child be born to mentally & financially stable healthy couples instead.
Summer break is literally in 2 weeks, Im enrolled in like 7 classes and six of those professors dont really gaf anymore. But one of them literally gives two huge projects and one day to do it. He makes u get ur own materials and unfortunately amazon takes 2 days to deliver, i told him I couldnt finish it on time bc my materials didnt arrive, and somehow its my fault for not walking 2 hours to the nearest home depot for materials. An intro class cannot be this deep.
back in 2000s, I was teenager and used to volunteer for nearby preschools and the kids were super respectful, at 4 years old they knew quiet time means u keep ur voice down unless emergency. now kids be 10 years old and still scream on flights and subways and never know how to shut up. their parents dont seem to care at all either. I understand that babies cry and its not their fault, I would never be annoyed at a baby. But how can a kid be old enough to solve math equations and still be so damn loud in a quiet environment. When another adult tells them to keep it down nicely they think its a joke. AND THEIR MOMS JS DONT GAF. when my little brother whos 8 scream on planes my mom would tell him to be quiet or no ipad or switch for a week.