[22F] needs help with current bf [25M]
So I need some help... I feel like I'm letting my partner down. We've been together for almost 8 years now, but I feel like it's just becoming harder for him to be with me. I feel like I'm not doing enough for him and I'm afraid he'll eventually leave me, or leave to be with someone better. I suffer from a lot of trauma, and also have BPD, severe anxiety and depression. I grew up in a household that wasn't the ideal place to learn love. I constantly overthink things, or accuse him of cheating (even though I know he's not). I feel like I'm letting him down and I feel like he deserves more from me. I buy him flowers so he knows I'm thinking about him, his favorite snacks, drinks, etc. I'm also afraid that he's been lying about having female friends even though I'm slowly learning to be okay with it because I shouldn't control who he's friends with, I just want honesty and open communication. Any advice would help greatly