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I posted about this crush months ago, but I’ll give a background for those who didn’t see the post.

I’m a female in my twenties. I have a really big crush on MJ. I am immensely attracted to him in all eras, but especially during his Bad era when he has the short wavy black hair. This crush has been going on and off since I was a tween. I’m not sure why I like him or what it is about him that I’m attracted to. I’m not necessarily a fan of him or his music or his artistry, so I don’t know why I’m so attracted to him or have a massive crush on him.

I can’t bring myself to look at a photo of him or say his name out loud because of my crush on him. If I see a photo of him anywhere, I instantly look away or cover it so that I don’t have to look at his face. If anyone talks about him or says anything positive about him - such as about his new biopic - I tend to act indifferent and cold and act like I don’t care about him so that no one will find out my true feelings about him. I can’t bring myself to say his full name, but only his initials MJ.

I don’t know why I like him but I am so attracted to him. I fantasize about kissing him and dating him and being in a romantic relationship with him.

When I first posted about this several months ago, I thought maybe I would feel differently by now. But nope. My crush is still in full force and my attraction to him is stronger than ever. And I’m embarrassed about my crush on him and being attracted to him.

Has anyone else experienced this and do you have any ideas on how I can weaken this crush?

Hi everyone! Please let me know if this is the right subreddit to post this. If it’s not, please direct me to the right subreddit. To start off, I’m a female and I have a massive crush on MJ. The crush has been going on and off for years now, ever since I was a tween. I’m immensely attracted to him in all his eras, but ESPECIALLY in his Bad era when he has the short wavy black hair. I’m really embarrassed to admit this crush out loud, so certain subreddits are the only place I feel safe expressing my true feelings about him. I’m so embarrassed about it that anytime someone brings him up and talks positively about him - like when discussing his new biopic - I tend to talk negatively about him to prevent anyone finding out my true feelings about him.

A few weeks ago, I saw an old TMZ video clip where a bunch of fans and a mob of people were swarming MJ in his car. I think this was in like 2002 or something like that. He was inside his car with a bunch of other males. People are pushing up against the car. Referring to a female fan’s breasts, MJ remarks to his male companions, laughing, “Oooh, look at her titties! Her titties!”.

Is that type of comment normal for guys to say to each other? MJ was pointing out a woman’s breasts to other males, encouraging them to look at her breasts and laugh at her. It kind of grossed me out and weirded me out to hear him talk about a woman’s breasts like that lol. People always say he was shy, but in this video clip, he is not shy about sexualizing a woman lol. Do men typically do this? Or was this sexual harassment?