u/upsidedownsq

I asked Tarot how he feels about me and received: Two of Wands, King of Cups, Three of Pentacles, and Queen of Pentacles.

Background:

We were intimate first thing (I asked him if he wanted to kiss). On second hang, I told him I wanted to be just friends due to a personal situation I was going through (still am but trying to get a better grip on situation). He then proceeded to say “I wasn’t actually looking for a relationship” then week later, I felt feelings after hanging again as “just friends” but we had slight flirting such as him speaking French to me (it made me melt in my seat), I felt him glancing at me doing a double take after I was laughing. He tends to do that whenever I laugh, he would give me this silent sweet content smile. Same when we were watching a movie and he held my hand caressing my finger.

We would have slight glances at each other when we were just talking sitting in front of each other. It was awkward but so cute. I felt good vibes.

He’s farted in-front of me on the 3rd hang lol idk if that means anything? He seemed a bit embarrassed when I caught him and I made a joke out of it saying I find farts funny and my farts are stinky lmao. He started laughing. I wanted to make him feel comfortable and not embarrassed.

I finally told him days later that I enjoy talking to him, saying I wanted to take things slow and he said “I like you too, we can totally take things slow”

Fast forward, we’ve been seeing eachother for about a month now. We’ve hung out about 7 times so far. We talk almost daily. He initiates and at times, checks up on me. We send each other reels and talk silly banter. It’s fun. I love talking to him and enjoy being around him.

I started wondering how he genuinely felt about me and was curious. So I decided to ask him “do you want to be a friends with benefits sort of thing or date or what” question.

His Voice message: “Um well, I mean, I mean, it depends on you. Um not really sure because a little while back, I figured that I wanted to be monogamous and I was dating this one girl but then she broke up with me and wasn't really sure and so currently, l've been seeing a few different people. I've been seeing three people counting you and I don't really know. I think I'm enjoying seeing multiple people. So like I could maybe see myself being poly. I I do think that like long long term it's not what I want to do. But also like in the short term, it would be doable. Um so it's kind of up to you. If you want to like date or just be friends with benefits. Um I mean it kind of depends on which you prefer.
Uh because I'm open to both, I think.”

I was still contemplating what to respond and he sent another message right after asking, “Sooo what would you like to do?”

I responded telling him that I would like to continue dating instead of just friends with benefits. He said “Ok!”. He proceeds to message me, initiate , and asked if I’d like to hang with him this weekend.

Note: we met on tinder and are both newly poly. I have been poly for a year but haven’t dated anyone really. I’m open to dating people and him seeing others but I’m not planning on dating a whole bunch of people especially at the moment.

I like talking to him and being around him.

When I deactivated my Facebook, he messaged me asking if I deleted it. He also messaged me apparently beforehand asking if I made it home safe after I left his house.

I just worry that it is too good to be true or that he actually doesn’t genuinely like me. I’m not used to being pursued by someone I like or just anyone really. I’m not used to dating. I keep having “I’m not worthy of love” imbedded in my brain.

I was texting him one day. I stepped away from the message box and got distracted but then I thought “What if he texts me asking me how my day is? Ask him how his day is” it was like an image popped in my head and then RIGHT at the VERY moment, he sends me another text asking, “How was your day?”

I giggled because it felt uncanny lol

I told him and he responded, “Destiny”

I asked Tarot how he feels about me and received: Two of Wands, King of Cups, Three of Pentacles, and Queen of Pentacles.

Background:

We were intimate first thing (I asked him if he wanted to kiss). On second hang, I told him I wanted to be just friends due to a personal situation I was going through (still am but trying to get a better grip on situation). He then proceeded to say “I wasn’t actually looking for a relationship” then week later, I felt feelings after hanging again as “just friends” but we had slight flirting such as him speaking French to me (it made me melt in my seat), I felt him glancing at me doing a double take after I was laughing. He tends to do that whenever I laugh, he would give me this silent sweet content smile. Same when we were watching a movie and he held my hand caressing my finger.

We would have slight glances at each other when we were just talking sitting in front of each other. It was awkward but so cute. I felt good vibes.

He’s farted in-front of me on the 3rd hang lol idk if that means anything? He seemed a bit embarrassed when I caught him and I made a joke out of it saying I find farts funny and my farts are stinky lmao. He started laughing. I wanted to make him feel comfortable and not embarrassed.

I finally told him days later that I enjoy talking to him, saying I wanted to take things slow and he said “I like you too, we can totally take things slow”

Fast forward, we’ve been seeing eachother for about a month now. We’ve hung out about 7 times so far. We talk almost daily. He initiates and at times, checks up on me. We send each other reels and talk silly banter. It’s fun. I love talking to him and enjoy being around him.

I started wondering how he genuinely felt about me and was curious. So I decided to ask him “do you want to be a friends with benefits sort of thing or date or what” question.

His Voice message: “Um well, I mean, I mean, it depends on you. Um not really sure because a little while back, I figured that I wanted to be monogamous and I was dating this one girl but then she broke up with me and wasn't really sure and so currently, l've been seeing a few different people. I've been seeing three people counting you and I don't really know. I think I'm enjoying seeing multiple people. So like I could maybe see myself being poly. I I do think that like long long term it's not what I want to do. But also like in the short term, it would be doable. Um so it's kind of up to you. If you want to like date or just be friends with benefits. Um I mean it kind of depends on which you prefer.
Uh because I'm open to both, I think.”

I was still contemplating what to respond and he sent another message right after asking, “Sooo what would you like to do?”

I responded telling him that I would like to continue dating instead of just friends with benefits. He said “Ok!”. He proceeds to message me, initiate , and asked if I’d like to hang with him this weekend.

Note: we met on tinder and are both newly poly. I have been poly for a year but haven’t dated anyone really. I’m open to dating people and him seeing others but I’m not planning on dating a whole bunch of people especially at the moment.

I like talking to him and being around him.

When I deactivated my Facebook, he messaged me asking if I deleted it. He also messaged me apparently beforehand asking if I made it home safe after I left his house.

I just worry that it is too good to be true or that he actually doesn’t genuinely like me. I’m not used to being pursued by someone I like or just anyone really. I’m not used to dating. I keep having “I’m not worthy of love” imbedded in my brain.

I was texting him one day. I stepped away from the message box and got distracted but then I thought “What if he texts me asking me how my day is? Ask him how his day is” it was like an image popped in my head and then RIGHT at the VERY moment, he sends me another text asking, “How was your day?”

I giggled because it felt uncanny lol

I told him and he responded, “Destiny”

We were intimate first thing (I asked him if he wanted to kiss). On second hang, I told him I wanted to be just friends due to a personal situation I was going through (still am but trying to get a better grip on situation). He then proceeded to say “I wasn’t actually looking for a relationship” then week later, I felt feelings after hanging again as “just friends” but we had slight flirting such as him speaking French to me (it made me melt in my seat), I felt him glancing at me doing a double take after I was laughing. He tends to do that whenever I laugh, he would give me this silent sweet content smile. Same when we were watching a movie and he held my hand caressing my finger.

We would have slight glances at each other when we were just talking sitting in front of each other. It was awkward but so cute. I felt good vibes.

He’s farted in-front of me on the 3rd hang lol idk if that means anything? He seemed a bit embarrassed when I caught him and I made a joke out of it saying I find farts funny and my farts are stinky lmao. He started laughing. I wanted to make him feel comfortable and not embarrassed.

I finally told him days later that I enjoy talking to him, saying I wanted to take things slow and he said “I like you too, we can totally take things slow”

Fast forward, we’ve been seeing eachother for about a month now. We’ve hung out about 7 times so far. We talk almost daily. He initiates and at times, checks up on me. We send each other reels and talk silly banter. It’s fun. I love talking to him and enjoy being around him.

I started wondering how he genuinely felt about me and was curious. So I decided to ask him “do you want to be a friends with benefits sort of thing or date or what” question.

His Voice message: “Um well, I mean, I mean, it depends on you. Um not really sure because a little while back, I figured that I wanted to be monogamous and I was dating this one girl but then she broke up with me and wasn't really sure and so currently, l've been seeing a few different people. I've been seeing three people counting you and I don't really know. I think I'm enjoying seeing multiple people. So like I could maybe see myself being poly. I I do think that like long long term it's not what I want to do. But also like in the short term, it would be doable. Um so it's kind of up to you. If you want to like date or just be friends with benefits. Um I mean it kind of depends on which you prefer.
Uh because I'm open to both, I think.”

I was still contemplating what to respond and he sent another message right after asking, “Sooo what would you like to do?”

I responded telling him that I would like to continue dating instead of just friends with benefits. He said “Ok!”. He proceeds to message me, initiate , and asked if I’d like to hang with him this weekend.

Note: we met on tinder and are both newly poly. I have been poly for a year but haven’t dated anyone really. I’m open to dating people and him seeing others but I’m not planning on dating a whole bunch of people especially at the moment.

I like talking to him and being around him.

When I deactivated my Facebook, he messaged me asking if I deleted it. He also messaged me apparently beforehand asking if I made it home safe after I left his house.

I just worry that it is too good to be true or that he actually doesn’t genuinely like me. I’m not used to being pursued by someone I like or just anyone really. I’m not used to dating. I keep having “I’m not worthy of love” imbedded in my brain.

I was texting him one day. I stepped away from the message box and got distracted but then I thought “What if he texts me asking me how my day is? Ask him how his day is” it was like an image popped in my head and then RIGHT at the VERY moment, he sends me another text asking, “How was your day?”

I giggled because it felt uncanny lol

I told him and he responded, “Destiny”

We were intimate first thing (I asked him if he wanted to kiss). On second hang, I told him I wanted to be just friends due to a personal situation I was going through (still am but trying to get a better grip on situation). He then proceeded to say “I wasn’t actually looking for a relationship” then week later, I felt feelings after hanging again as “just friends” but we had slight flirting such as him speaking French to me (it made me melt in my seat), I felt him glancing at me doing a double take after I was laughing. He tends to do that whenever I laugh, he would give me this silent sweet content smile. Same when we were watching a movie and he held my hand caressing my finger.

We would have slight glances at each other when we were just talking sitting in front of each other. It was awkward but so cute. I felt good vibes.

He’s farted in-front of me on the 3rd hang lol idk if that means anything? He seemed a bit embarrassed when I caught him and I made a joke out of it saying I find farts funny and my farts are stinky lmao. He started laughing. I wanted to make him feel comfortable and not embarrassed.

I finally told him days later that I enjoy talking to him, saying I wanted to take things slow and he said “I like you too, we can totally take things slow”

Fast forward, we’ve been seeing eachother for about a month now. We’ve hung out about 7 times so far. We talk almost daily. He initiates and at times, checks up on me. We send each other reels and talk silly banter. It’s fun. I love talking to him and enjoy being around him.

I started wondering how he genuinely felt about me and was curious. So I decided to ask him “do you want to be a friends with benefits sort of thing or date or what” question.

His Voice message: “Um well, I mean, I mean, it depends on you. Um not really sure because a little while back, I figured that I wanted to be monogamous and I was dating this one girl but then she broke up with me and wasn't really sure and so currently, l've been seeing a few different people. I've been seeing three people counting you and I don't really know. I think I'm enjoying seeing multiple people. So like I could maybe see myself being poly. I I do think that like long long term it's not what I want to do. But also like in the short term, it would be doable. Um so it's kind of up to you. If you want to like date or just be friends with benefits. Um I mean it kind of depends on which you prefer.
Uh because I'm open to both, I think.”

I was still contemplating what to respond and he sent another message right after asking, “Sooo what would you like to do?”

I responded telling him that I would like to continue dating instead of just friends with benefits. He said “Ok!”. He proceeds to message me, initiate , and asked if I’d like to hang with him this weekend.

Note: we met on tinder and are both newly poly. I have been poly for a year but haven’t dated anyone really. I’m open to dating people and him seeing others but I’m not planning on dating a whole bunch of people especially at the moment.

I like talking to him and being around him.

When I deactivated my Facebook, he messaged me asking if I deleted it. He also messaged me apparently beforehand asking if I made it home safe after I left his house.

I just worry that it is too good to be true or that he actually doesn’t genuinely like me. I’m not used to being pursued by someone I like or just anyone really. I’m not used to dating. I keep having “I’m not worthy of love” imbedded in my brain.

I was texting him one day. I stepped away from the message box and got distracted but then I thought “What if he texts me asking me how my day is? Ask him how his day is” it was like an image popped in my head and then RIGHT at the VERY moment, he sends me another text asking, “How was your day?”

I giggled because it felt uncanny lol

I told him and he responded, “Destiny”

I was texting my crush who I’ve been seeing for a month now so far. We’ve been hanging out 7 times now. We seem to message at least every day. I stepped away from the message box and got distracted but then I thought “What if he texts me asking me how my day is? Ask him how his day is” it was like an image popped in my head and then RIGHT at the VERY moment, he sends me another text asking, “How was your day?”

I giggled because it felt uncanny.

I told him and he responded, “Destiny”

I know it’s silly but I’m curious if he genuinely felt it was Destiny or was joking with me. I keep wondering how he feels about me truly.

I’m seeing someone pretty rad and enjoy talking to them. I don’t believe they actually genuinely like me due to past trauma, childhood neglect, insecurities etc.

I’ve been tapping (eft tapping) for over a year now. Been doing it at least daily every morning when I wake up. I tell myself I am worthy, beautiful, loved and that I love and accept myself. I believe it in the moment but I end up getting triggers that bring up my insecurities later.

It makes me feel hopeless.
I am seeing a therapist for about a year so far and she believes I am getting better. I feel like I keep slipping back into old patterns of negative thoughts of myself.

I want to truly love myself and not get triggered. I’m tired of asking questions (on reddit) so much whenever I’m lost or confused about something so simple and not that huge of a deal because I feel insecure. I hate receiving comments from redditors that I need a therapist even though I have one and that I need to love myself. I get hate comments from these commenters that something must be wrong with me and I start feeling like pressured to love myself fast and heal fast.

It’s what I’ve been doing this whole time but…feel hopeless.

It’s as if I know I’m beautiful, radiant and have an awesome personality. But insecurities keep telling me to not believe that.

Note: I have depression, ocd and social anxiety. Possibly autistic and have adhd.

I was texting my crush who I’ve been seeing for a month now so far. We’ve been hanging out 7 times now. We seem to message at least every day. I stepped away from the message box and got distracted but then I thought “What if he texts me asking me how my day is? Ask him how his day is” it was like an image popped in my head and then RIGHT at the VERY moment, he sends me another text asking, “How was your day?”

I giggled because it felt uncanny.

I told him and he said “Destiny”

I was texting my crush who I’ve been seeing for a month now so far. We’ve been hanging out 7 times now. We seem to message at least every day. I stepped away from the message box and got distracted but then I thought “What if he texts me asking me how my day is? Ask him how his day is” it was like an image popped in my head and then RIGHT at the VERY moment, he sends me another text asking, “How was your day?”

I giggled because it felt uncanny.

I told him and he said “Destiny”

I was texting my crush who I’ve been seeing for a month now so far. I stepped away from the text box and got distracted but then I thought “What if he texts me asking me how my day is? Ask him how his day is” it was like an image popped in my head and then RIGHT at the VERY moment, he sends me another text asking, “How was your day?”

I giggled because it felt uncanny.

I told him and he said “Destiny”

We were intimate first thing (I asked him if he wanted to kiss). On second hang, I told him I wanted to be just friends due to a personal situation I was going through (still am but trying to get a better grip on situation). He then proceeded to say “I wasn’t actually looking for a relationship” then week later, I felt feelings after hanging again as “just friends” but we had slight flirting such as him speaking French to me (it made me melt in my seat), I felt him glancing at me doing a double take after I was laughing. He tends to do that whenever I laugh, he would give me this silent sweet content smile. Same when we were watching a movie and he held my hand caressing my finger.

We would have slight glances at each other when we were just talking sitting in front of each other. It was awkward but so cute. I felt good vibes.

He’s farted in-front of me on the 3rd hang lol idk if that means anything? He seemed a bit embarrassed when I caught him and I made a joke out of it saying I find farts funny and my farts are stinky lmao. He started laughing. I wanted to make him feel comfortable and not embarrassed.

I finally told him days later that I enjoy talking to him, saying I wanted to take things slow and he said “I like you too, we can totally take things slow”

Fast forward, we’ve been seeing eachother for about a month now. We’ve hung out about 7 times so far. We talk almost daily. He initiates and at times, checks up on me. We send each other reels and talk silly banter. It’s fun. I love talking to him and enjoy being around him.

I started wondering how he genuinely felt about me and was curious. So I decided to ask him “do you want to be a friends with benefits sort of thing or date or what” question.

His Voice message: “Um well, I mean, I mean, it depends on you. Um not really sure because a little while back, I figured that I wanted to be monogamous and I was dating this one girl but then she broke up with me and wasn't really sure and so currently, l've been seeing a few different people. I've been seeing three people counting you and I don't really know. I think I'm enjoying seeing multiple people. So like I could maybe see myself being poly. I I do think that like long long term it's not what I want to do. But also like in the short term, it would be doable. Um so it's kind of up to you. If you want to like date or just be friends with benefits. Um I mean it kind of depends on which you prefer.
Uh because I'm open to both, I think.”

I was still contemplating what to respond and he sent another message right after asking, “Sooo what would you like to do?”

I responded telling him that I would like to continue dating instead of just friends with benefits. He said “Ok!”. He proceeds to message me, initiate , and asked if I’d like to hang with him this weekend.

Note: we met on tinder and are both newly poly. I have been poly for a year but haven’t dated anyone really. I’m open to dating people and him seeing others but I’m not planning on dating a whole bunch of people especially at the moment.

I like talking to him and being around him.

When I deactivated my Facebook, he messaged me asking if I deleted it. He also messaged me apparently beforehand asking if I made it home safe after I left his house.

I just worry that it is too good to be true or that he actually doesn’t genuinely like me. I’m not used to being pursued by someone I like or just anyone really. I’m not used to dating. I keep having “I’m not worthy of love” imbedded in my brain.

We were intimate first thing (I asked him if he wanted to kiss). On second hang, I told him I wanted to be just friends due to a personal situation I was going through (still am but trying to get a better grip on situation). He then proceeded to say “I wasn’t actually looking for a relationship” then week later, I felt feelings after hanging again as “just friends” but we had slight flirting such as him speaking French to me (it made me melt in my seat), I felt him glancing at me doing a double take after I was laughing. He tends to do that whenever I laugh, he would give me this silent sweet content smile. Same when we were watching a movie and he held my hand caressing my finger.

We would have slight glances at each other when we were just talking sitting in front of each other. It was awkward but so cute. I felt good vibes.

He’s farted in-front of me on the 3rd hang lol idk if that means anything? He seemed a bit embarrassed when I caught him and I made a joke out of it saying I find farts funny and my farts are stinky lmao. He started laughing. I wanted to make him feel comfortable and not embarrassed.

I finally told him days later that I enjoy talking to him, saying I wanted to take things slow and he said “I like you too, we can totally take things slow”

Fast forward, we’ve been seeing eachother for about a month now. We’ve hung out about 7 times so far. We talk almost daily. He initiates and at times, checks up on me. We send each other reels and talk silly banter. It’s fun. I love talking to him and enjoy being around him.

I started wondering how he genuinely felt about me and was curious. So I decided to ask him “do you want to be a friends with benefits sort of thing or date or what” question.

His Voice message: “Um well, I mean, I mean, it depends on you. Um not really sure because a little while back, I figured that I wanted to be monogamous and I was dating this one girl but then she broke up with me and wasn't really sure and so currently, l've been seeing a few different people. I've been seeing three people counting you and I don't really know. I think I'm enjoying seeing multiple people. So like I could maybe see myself being poly. I I do think that like long long term it's not what I want to do. But also like in the short term, it would be doable. Um so it's kind of up to you. If you want to like date or just be friends with benefits. Um I mean it kind of depends on which you prefer.
Uh because I'm open to both, I think.”

I was still contemplating what to respond and he sent another message right after asking, “Sooo what would you like to do?”

I responded telling him that I would like to continue dating instead of just friends with benefits. He said “Ok!”. He proceeds to message me, initiate , and asked if I’d like to hang with him this weekend.

Note: we met on tinder and are both newly poly. I have been poly for a year but haven’t dated anyone really. I’m open to dating people and him seeing others but I’m not planning on dating a whole bunch of people especially at the moment.

I like talking to him and being around him.

When I deactivated my Facebook, he messaged me asking if I deleted it. He also messaged me apparently beforehand asking if I made it home safe after I left his house.

I just worry that it is too good to be true or that he actually doesn’t genuinely like me. I’m not used to being pursued by someone I like or just anyone really. I’m not used to dating. I keep having “I’m not worthy of love” imbedded in my brain.

We were intimate first thing (I asked him if he wanted to kiss). On second hang, I told him I wanted to be just friends due to a personal situation I was going through (still am but trying to get a better grip on situation). He then proceeded to say “I wasn’t actually looking for a relationship” then week later, I felt feelings after hanging again as “just friends” but we had slight flirting such as him speaking French to me (it made me melt in my seat), I felt him glancing at me doing a double take after I was laughing. He tends to do that whenever I laugh, he would give me this silent sweet content smile. Same when we were watching a movie and he held my hand caressing my finger.

We would have slight glances at each other when we were just talking sitting in front of each other. It was awkward but so cute. I felt good vibes.

He’s farted in-front of me on the 3rd hang lol idk if that means anything? He seemed a bit embarrassed when I caught him and I made a joke out of it saying I find farts funny and my farts are stinky lmao. He started laughing. I wanted to make him feel comfortable and not embarrassed.

I finally told him days later that I enjoy talking to him, saying I wanted to take things slow and he said “I like you too, we can totally take things slow”

Fast forward, we’ve been seeing eachother for about a month now. We’ve hung out about 7 times so far. We talk almost daily. He initiates and at times, checks up on me. We send each other reels and talk silly banter. It’s fun. I love talking to him and enjoy being around him.

I started wondering how he genuinely felt about me and was curious. So I decided to ask him “do you want to be a friends with benefits sort of thing or date or what” question.

His Voice message: “Um well, I mean, I mean, it depends on you. Um not really sure because a little while back, I figured that I wanted to be monogamous and I was dating this one girl but then she broke up with me and wasn't really sure and so currently, l've been seeing a few different people. I've been seeing three people counting you and I don't really know. I think I'm enjoying seeing multiple people. So like I could maybe see myself being poly. I I do think that like long long term it's not what I want to do. But also like in the short term, it would be doable. Um so it's kind of up to you. If you want to like date or just be friends with benefits. Um I mean it kind of depends on which you prefer.
Uh because I'm open to both, I think.”

I was still contemplating what to respond and he sent another message right after asking, “Sooo what would you like to do?”

I responded telling him that I would like to continue dating instead of just friends with benefits. He said “Ok!”. He proceeds to message me, initiate , and asked if I’d like to hang with him this weekend.

Note: we met on tinder and are both newly poly. I have been poly for a year but haven’t dated anyone really. I’m open to dating people and him seeing others but I’m not planning on dating a whole bunch of people especially at the moment.

I like talking to him and being around him.

When I deactivated my Facebook, he messaged me asking if I deleted it. He also messaged me apparently beforehand asking if I made it home safe after I left his house.

I just worry that it is too good to be true or that he actually doesn’t genuinely like me. I’m not used to being pursued by someone I like or just anyone really. I’m not used to dating. I keep having “I’m not worthy of love” imbedded in my brain.

I have a hard time loving myself and believing I am lovable. I’ve grown to appreciate parts of myself though and I’m getting gradually better. It’s like, I love and see my beauty but social conditioning has blinded me into thinking I’m the worst or not the best.

I’ve heard a bit about Law of Assumption and how what you assume/believe, it will show up in your 3D.

I like a guy I’ve been seeing. I was hesitant if he liked me or not genuinely but I’m going to believe that he does actually like me. Part of me believes he does genuinely like me but the other part is insecure shouting that he doesn’t actually. I’m so used to being rejected or friendzoned. Childhood trauma imbedded in my brain saying “I’m not worthy”

From observation, I can tell he has some interest in me. I love being around him and talking to him. I can tell he enjoys my presence too. We enjoy each other’s presence. We are hanging out again this Saturday and I’m excited. It’s going to be so fun. We’ve hung out about a couple times so far. He held my hand during a hang out and looked at me with these sweet, quiet smile of content as if he was happy to be there and happy I am there. Whenever I laugh, he looks at me and does this double take thing where he does the content quiet sweet smile. I feel like he does genuinely like me and I am worthy of being liked. I am worthy of being seen as beautiful because I am beautiful.

I have to remember (even without him) that I am loved, worthy and valid. I am beautiful, special and unique. I matter and am worthy of love. I accept and love myself deeply. I share myself with the world openly with love and kindness. I express my beauty and I am loved for who I truly am. I will appreciate these experiences and go with the flow.

I have a hard time loving myself and believing I am lovable. I’ve grown to appreciate parts of myself though and I’m getting gradually better. It’s like, I love and see my beauty but social conditioning has blinded me into thinking I’m the worst or not the best.

I’ve heard a bit about Law of Assumption and how what you assume/believe, it will show up in your 3D.

I like a guy I’ve been seeing. I was hesitant if he liked me or not genuinely but I’m going to believe that he does actually like me. Part of me believes he does genuinely like me but the other part is insecure shouting that he doesn’t actually. I’m so used to being rejected or friendzoned. Childhood trauma imbedded in my brain saying “I’m not worthy”

From observation, I can tell he has some interest in me. I love being around him and talking to him. I can tell he enjoys my presence too. We enjoy each other’s presence. We are hanging out again this Saturday and I’m excited. It’s going to be so fun. We’ve hung out about a couple times so far. He held my hand during a hang out and looked at me with these sweet, quiet smile of content as if he was happy to be there and happy I am there. Whenever I laugh, he looks at me and does this double take thing where he does the content quiet sweet smile. I feel like he does genuinely like me and I am worthy of being liked. I am worthy of being seen as beautiful because I am beautiful.

I have to remember (even without him) that I am loved, worthy and valid. I am beautiful, special and unique. I matter and am worthy of love. I accept and love myself deeply. I share myself with the world openly with love and kindness. I express my beauty and I am loved for who I truly am. I will appreciate these experiences and go with the flow.

We were intimate first thing (I asked him if he wanted to kiss). On second hang, I told him I wanted to be just friends due to a personal situation I was going through (still am but trying to get a better grip on situation). He then proceeded to say “I wasn’t actually looking for a relationship” then week later, I felt feelings after hanging again as “just friends” but we had slight flirting such as him speaking French to me (it made me melt in my seat), I felt him glancing at me doing a double take after I was laughing. He tends to do that whenever I laugh, he would give me this silent sweet content smile. Same when we were watching a movie and he held my hand caressing my finger.

We would have slight glances at each other when we were just talking sitting in front of each other. It was awkward but so cute. I felt good vibes.

He’s farted in-front of me on the 3rd hang lol idk if that means anything? He seemed a bit embarrassed when I caught him and I made a joke out of it saying I find farts funny and my farts are stinky lmao. He started laughing. I wanted to make him feel comfortable and not embarrassed.

I finally told him days later that I enjoy talking to him, saying I wanted to take things slow and he said “I like you too, we can totally take things slow”

Fast forward, we’ve been seeing eachother for about a month now. We’ve hung out about 7 times so far. We talk almost daily. He initiates and at times, checks up on me. We send each other reels and talk silly banter. It’s fun. I love talking to him and enjoy being around him.

I started wondering how he genuinely felt about me and was curious. So I decided to ask him “do you want to be a friends with benefits sort of thing or date or what” question.

His Voice message: “Um well, I mean, I mean, it depends on you. Um not really sure because a little while back, I figured that I wanted to be monogamous and I was dating this one girl but then she broke up with me and wasn't really sure and so currently, l've been seeing a few different people. I've been seeing three people counting you and I don't really know. I think I'm enjoying seeing multiple people. So like I could maybe see myself being poly. I I do think that like long long term it's not what I want to do. But also like in the short term, it would be doable. Um so it's kind of up to you. If you want to like date or just be friends with benefits. Um I mean it kind of depends on which you prefer.
Uh because I'm open to both, I think.”

I was still contemplating what to respond and he sent another message right after asking, “Sooo what would you like to do?”

I responded telling him that I would like to continue dating instead of just friends with benefits. He said “Ok!”. He proceeds to message me, initiate , and asked if I’d like to hang with him this weekend.

Note: we met on tinder and are both newly poly. I have been poly for a year but haven’t dated anyone really. I’m open to dating people and him seeing others but I’m not planning on dating a whole bunch of people especially at the moment.

I like talking to him and being around him.

When I deactivated my Facebook, he messaged me asking if I deleted it. He also messaged me apparently beforehand asking if I made it home safe after I left his house.

I just worry that it is too good to be true or that he actually doesn’t genuinely like me. I’m not used to being pursued by someone I like or just anyone really. I’m not used to dating. I keep having “I’m not worthy of love” imbedded in my brain.

We were intimate first thing (I asked him if he wanted to kiss). On second hang, I told him I wanted to be just friends due to a personal situation I was going through (still am but trying to get a better grip on situation). He then proceeded to say “I wasn’t actually looking for a relationship” then week later, I felt feelings after hanging again as “just friends” but we had slight flirting such as him speaking French to me (it made me melt in my seat), I felt him glancing at me doing a double take after I was laughing. He tends to do that whenever I laugh, he would give me this silent sweet content smile. Same when we were watching a movie and he held my hand caressing my finger.

We would have slight glances at each other when we were just talking sitting in front of each other. It was awkward but so cute. I felt good vibes.

He’s farted in-front of me on the 3rd hang lol idk if that means anything? He seemed a bit embarrassed when I caught him and I made a joke out of it saying I find farts funny and my farts are stinky lmao. He started laughing. I wanted to make him feel comfortable and not embarrassed.

I finally told him days later that I enjoy talking to him, saying I wanted to take things slow and he said “I like you too, we can totally take things slow”

Fast forward, we’ve been seeing eachother for about a month now. We’ve hung out about 7 times so far. We talk almost daily. He initiates and at times, checks up on me. We send each other reels and talk silly banter. It’s fun. I love talking to him and enjoy being around him.

I started wondering how he genuinely felt about me and was curious. So I decided to ask him “do you want to be a friends with benefits sort of thing or date or what” question.

His Voice message: “Um well, I mean, I mean, it depends on you. Um not really sure because a little while back, I figured that I wanted to be monogamous and I was dating this one girl but then she broke up with me and wasn't really sure and so currently, l've been seeing a few different people. I've been seeing three people counting you and I don't really know. I think I'm enjoying seeing multiple people. So like I could maybe see myself being poly. I I do think that like long long term it's not what I want to do. But also like in the short term, it would be doable. Um so it's kind of up to you. If you want to like date or just be friends with benefits. Um I mean it kind of depends on which you prefer.
Uh because I'm open to both, I think.”

I was still contemplating what to respond and he sent another message right after asking, “Sooo what would you like to do?”

I responded telling him that I would like to continue dating instead of just friends with benefits. He said “Ok!”. He proceeds to message me, initiate , and asked if I’d like to hang with him this weekend.

Note: we met on tinder and are both newly poly. I have been poly for a year but haven’t dated anyone really. I’m open to dating people and him seeing others but I’m not planning on dating a whole bunch of people especially at the moment.

I like talking to him and being around him.

When I deactivated my Facebook, he messaged me asking if I deleted it. He also messaged me apparently beforehand asking if I made it home safe after I left his house.

I just worry that it is too good to be true or that he actually doesn’t genuinely like me. I’m not used to being pursued by someone I like or just anyone really. I’m not used to dating. I keep having “I’m not worthy of love” imbedded in my brain.

Is this random? Creepy? Weird? Normal?

So, I was on Instagram and got a friend follow request by a mutual of my crush who I’ve been seeing. I looked at their profile and I think it’s his roommate or friend. They look familiar. I don’t remember what their roommate looked like all that much from the times I’ve hung out with him and ran into them but I think it might be them.

I’m just wondering…if his friend or roommate follows me, what does that mean?

I just like the guy and wondering if he’s ever talked about me to others lol

I asked my crush who I’ve been seeing for about a month now where we stand. I was wondering if we were dating, if he wanted to just date or be friends with benefits. He responded saying he’s seeing three other people including me. That he is open to dating or being friends with benefits, whatever I want to do.

We’ve been intimate especially the first hang out. We haven’t had sex. I told him about my condition and he seemed to accept it. So we’ve been making out and just being intimate without penetration.

I have a partner I live with which we’re both newly poly. Been for a year.

Me and the guy I’ve been seeing talk almost daily which he usually initiates. We’ve hung out 7 times and it’s been fun. He said he enjoys hanging out. We’ve already told each other our “I like you and enjoy talking to you”.

When we last hung out, he held my hand and gave me this content sweet soft smile.

He checks up on me and asks me questions about myself which he is attentive.

Is a month too soon to discuss “where we stand”? Was it a bad idea that I asked him that? Was it bad that he just told me *now* that he was actually seeing others even though we weren’t necessarily exclusive?

I was curious how he felt so I asked him.

When we hang, it is so nice and I enjoy talking to him.

What I want is to date and be intimate with each other. Not just a friends with benefits casual thing. I told him that I wanted to date and not just FWB and he responded “ok!”

I asked this guy I’ve been seeing for about a month now where we stand. I was wondering if we were dating, if he wanted to just date or be friends with benefits. He responded saying he’s seeing three other people including me. That he is open to dating or being friends with benefits, whatever I want to do.

We’ve been intimate especially the first hang out. We haven’t had sex. I told him about my condition and he seemed to accept it. So we’ve been making out and just being intimate without penetration.

I have a partner I live with which we’re both newly poly. Been for a year.

Me and the guy I’ve been seeing talk almost daily which he usually initiates. We’ve hung out 7 times and it’s been fun. He said he enjoys hanging out. We’ve already told each other our “I like you and enjoy talking to you”.

When we last hung out, he held my hand and gave me this content sweet soft smile.

He checks up on me and asks me questions about myself which he is attentive.

Is a month too soon to discuss “where we stand”? Was it a bad idea that I asked him that? Was it bad that he just told me *now* that he was actually seeing others even though we weren’t necessarily exclusive?

I was curious how he felt so I asked him.

When we hang, it is so nice and I enjoy talking to him.

What I want is to date and be intimate with each other. Not just a friends with benefits casual thing. I told him that I wanted to date and not just FWB and he responded “ok!”

Idk, just overthinking. I’ve been off one of my meds and experiencing withdrawals.

I’m not sure if I’m getting better generally in my journey in life.

I haven’t showered in days but today, got up and decided to take a shower. I spoke affirmations to myself in the mirror while doing meditation technique. I’ve been meditating every morning. I’ve been drinking herbal teas. I’ve been drawing and expressing myself through art. Idk if I’m “trying too hard” to heal but I just wonder if I’m doing it *right*. I’m overthinking as usual.

I still feel insecure and depressed. I still feel anxious and hopeless.
It may just be the absence of the med but it feels like I’m going to be feeling this way forever.

I want to love myself more but it’s just so hard. I keep thinking I’m not that good enough or worthy. Even though, I tell myself “hey! You are worthy, beautiful and good enough! These are just past thoughts!”

I try to tell myself that I’m not in the past anymore and that those negative experiences aren’t my reality anymore. I was teased, rejected, ostracized, and overlooked growing up and I can’t get over it. It’s unbearable.

I see a therapist currently