r/MoroccoButBetter

in your opinion, how would u define "true happiness"

im not talking abt the "happiness" u get when u spike ur dopamine tho

i have troubles meeting old friends, the one i got seperated from due to different schools or maybe js slowly getting away from each other, when i went to take the regional exam, i met a bunch of people i knew from my elementary school that i got seperated from due to going to different middle schools.

before i actually met them i felt so anxious, for some reason i expected all of them to hate me or maybe js completely forget abt me, it felt weird, but after i actually met them and reconnected with them, they were so chill and friendly, and ACTUALLY remembered me.

this always happens to me with people i havent seen in so long, i always expect the worst from them

so, first of all, the thought that she might be interested in me jumps in whenever she smiles at me, waves at me or stares at me or makes multiple eye contacts with me, and it jumps in again in different times whenever i get reminded of her, then there is the "realistic" thaught, looking at myself in the mirror and looking at her, she is friends with every boy in school, and she could have basically anyone if she wanted to, guys in my school exist in every form; smart, athletic, everything she could want in a bf, and there is me...she isnt gonna choose me, i aknowledge that with every part of my brain, yet i cant get her out of my head.

long story short: im a guy, 15, and i cant help but get attached to girls who show me the tiniest bit of attention and kindness, im not confident enough to like, start conversations with a girl, or like, even ask for a pen in class, i js keep quiet when im near girls cuz im lowk scared of them.

one time, this pretty girl in my class sat next to me and started a conversation with me, she started talking to me more (not outside of class) and i got attached to her...i keep looping between the thought that she might be interested in me and immediately trying to get that out of my mind cuz ik its not true, i moved on cuz i dont really wanna keep thinking abt her anymre, but ik damn well ill get attached to another girl again if i cant stop it rn.

liking Femboys is TECHNICALLY not gay, bc u just cant afford a normal foid, so u just temporary deal with a femboy, if im only gonna do it because they look like women, then its not gay, right ?

in morocco, most young adult guys would def crack a teenager girl, but is that the case with girls too ?

i am still a minor, and i lowk had some fantasies abt maybe having an adult gf or like cracking an adult girl, and i dont really think its gonna come true anytime soon