Trans & Non-Binary

i'm sick of reading scp articles and suddenly there's something like: "mobile task force omega-alpha-42069 or whatever the authors come up with at the spot, if there's a special ocassion for it, to me it's ok, but then they suddenly invent 10 new mtfs just to do the SAME things again and again

I am 60 and grew up in the 70s and 80s. As a child, I had curly hair, blue eyes, and long eyelashes, often mistaken for a girl, especially by women who praised my appearance and wished they had my hair and eyelashes. At 11, staying at a friend's house, his mom bent down to greet me without a bra under her shirt. I saw her breasts, and I thought I couldn't wait to have breasts too. I was confused growing up due to limited information about being trans. In the 90s, I got married. The internet made it easy to look up information about being trans. My wife found my internet history, and we got divorced.

I am now married to my wonderful wife, and we have an awesome daughter. I have always been attached to women but at the same time wanted to be a woman. I spent years of wanting this feeling to go away. Now, at 60 my egg has cracked. I am a trans woman.

trigger warning bc i will be talking about outing & transphobia.

i found out recently at my job there's a rumour about one of my coworkers being a trans woman. apparently, word has it that my boss actually outed her and was telling people we now have a trans employee. it's unclear if she stated it was this employee or if this is who people just assumed it was. thing is that this coworker in question has never stated herself that she is trans or anything. and she's fairly an open book as well especially since we both bond and talk a lot about our experiences with BPD and other personal matters.

another major issue : i know for a fact there's a few people on our team who are transphobic. and the way people are talking about this coworker is transphobic as well. it's uncomfortable as a trans person myself whose closeted & pre-t but also i'm worried for my coworker as well. regardless if it's true, this can put a target on her back ( especially because i live in the rural south and she is a black woman ). either way, it's not anyone's business if she is or not. i expressed my concern to my two other coworkers with them talking about this being an ethics issue but they sort of just brushed it off because "it's not like they really care if she's trans". but i know there's people at my job that do and have made weirdly transphobic comments on the past.

i want to report this to hr but there's no evidence to actually prove this discussion took place. it's all hearsay. i'm hearing this from two coworkers who heard it from another who supposedly heard it from our boss. i'm sort of stuck on where to go and what to do. either way, this is not feeling good at ALL.

So a i (18) fell for a scam and lost all my money. And in that process my parents figured out how i got scammed and belittled me for it, and then we had a conversation about being Trans and they said that they don't understand it and that its a mental illness. My mom started saying that "Even trans people say its a mental illness" and sited Blaire White, and Jordan Peterson as her source of information. She then asked how far I would take it and said that I would never be a woman even if I chopped my Dick off I would never be a woman. And then I told her what I would do, Which is HRT, grow my hair out, and learn makeup and stuff. And she said that if i dont get surgeries im not committed to being trans, that's just my mom's side. My dad on the other hand got angry and was telling me that i used to be so logical and that what im thinking isn't logical and that biology doesn't work how i think it does, and there are only to Sexes and i cant change that. And they said they had known fir a while that i "wasn't normal" and hoped in the end i turned out normal. And then they made me tell them everything I have done to try to be feminine and they said im sick in the head and to stop doing this "Weird shit" and after i told them I was extremely depressed and have been forced four years, they said that its because of the internet and that i was influenced by "Weird shit" and then they said i got scammed because im trans. And then compared me to my older brother who is a drug addict and domestic abuser, saying how im no different. Then after all that, they told me since im under their roof i have to box all my girl stuff up and thet are gonna force a routine change, and force me to cut my hair. I dont know what to do and I feel so empty. Like I just want to curl up and dissappear.

I had my consult for top surgery about a month ago- reputable doc as far as I can tell, I’ve seen pics of his results on r/topsurgery and they look amazing and very flat. But he mentioned that some breast glandular tissue remains after top surgery because otherwise you may have a convex result and that the amount that remains is the same amount as cis men have. I was very direct that I don’t want any sort of “shaping” done to mimic pecs - I have pecs and I can work out if I want more, and he agreed.

But I’m looking at some posts about top surgery indicating all breast tissue should be removed, and mentioning the risk of breasts growing back otherwise (though I assume that’s only if you get off T.) most online sources seem to echo that top surgery usually leaves some behind but folks on Reddit seem to disagree. Does anyone have more insight on this? If you got top surgery, was any breast tissue left behind?

ETA: thank you. My surgeon and the myriad online resources saying some tissue should be left behind are not wrong. Guys, please do research- cis men have some glandular tissue and for a non-concave looking top surgery result you probably will too. Gonna stop stressing now and instead look at back pillows for recovery.

Oh and fwiw I got post top surgery continued breast cancer screening advice because my docs still advise it for trans men post top surgery.

I’ve talked to my dad about how when I turn 18, I’d like to start testosterone. His response was to be overprotective and scared of what will happen to me since I live in the U.S. I currently live with him and I haven’t explained the danger of me looking visibly queer and not being stealth compared to looking like a butch lesbian. I think I want to go on testosterone either way, but I’m afraid he’ll be upset since he technically forbid me… Just want some advice as to what to so since I don’t want to upset him, but I have dreamed for YEARS to just go stealth and feel like myself in my body.

They should take hrt for three years and then report their findings and see if they could STILL bench press their usual lbs (if they even lift in the first place)

anecdotal evidence is Always the best one truly. Because the entire discourse is absolutely apocalyptic levels of stupid. i have like 0 muscle mass now and its already been scientifically proven

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they just don't get it! it was all the usual stuff. are you sure? we don't think you thought about it enough! you're too immature to make decisions that big. have you considered how others will treat you?

YES YES YES I DID THATS THE WHOLE POINT

they want me to go to a psychologist/therapist, and then to a psychiatrist and who knows what else before we even think about hrt. the even said that I don't have enough life experience to decide because I've never been an adult or done adult stuff or been in a relationship and because I'm autistic

why can't they just trust their daughter on this one???

I really don't like wearing a binder. I don't know if someone already talked about this here, but I feel like it's an unpopular opinion. I heard that some people even want (or kind of need because the dysphoria is that bad) to wear a binder to sleep (which I know you shouldn't do!! So please be careful everyone). But for me I hate the feeling of a binder. It feels like a bra, for me it doesn't do the job like I want and it's so hard to get in and out xD

Hi my name's Jay im 21 I was kicked out at 18 ended up being evicted from my apartment at 19 and now am homeless with my dog. I live in missouri and have tried to utilize what little resources there are but I am scared and alone any advice or maybe just a like minded friend would be helpful thank you

I feel like I'm at my wits' end. about 2 weeks ago, she found out I'm still trans and don't dress "normally" at uni. she basically forced me to admit it when I was 14, after that I kept a low profile. what followed was hours and hours of psychological torture basically, for days. with no way to leave the conversation, otherwise she'd tell dad about it. she thinks I'm brainwashed and fixable. that I just haven't tried hard enough.

yesterday when I got back to my parents' house, the whole thing began again. last time I'd been made to promise her I'll try to become normal with a forced handshake. this time I asked her to go to the forest to talk, as I couldn't bear holding another session of this in the house. there I tried to be completely honest and explain my position. she threatened to crash the car and at one point started walking and said she's gonna get the keys and write a letter to dad and sister so that they know who's guilty. I had literally dialed the emergency number but didn't call, got her to calm down somewhat by promising I'll at least wear some more fem clothes at uni. which I won't... everyone at uni knows me by my chosen name, some don't even know I'm trans, and I've been on low-dose t for a while now. my voice has had a complete drop, but I fake a fem voice with family.

so what the fuck. I cannot do something that's impossible for me, I feel like I actually like existing now. but when she literally threatens to commit suicide, what am I supposed to do?? it's like she doesn't even know how to communicate and hold a normal conversation. everything I say can be used against me and is twisted some way.

edit for context: I'm financially independent and have my own place in the uni city. and sorry about my English, I should be able to English as I study linguistics but not really in the right state of mind rn

Hi. Has anyone stopped T after reaching their gender goals?

I just cant keep doing injections. I need something daily. Patches give me welts. And gel is just not compatible with my lifestyle. But also I don't really need to continue T. I have a lot of results I want (and some that are kinda meh)

Here's the thing I havent had a period since before I started T... so like since 2021. Would I get it back?

I have a full beard, mustache and short hair. My body is moderately hairy, I wear a binder.... how much will the hips coming back matter.... I'm like 240 pounds and 5'6 right now.

Basically I need people to help me weigh out the pros and cons of doing this because I keep missing my injections. Admittedly sometimes its because I'm just unmotivated. But it must be dangerous to start and stop T.... right?

Hi everyone,

I'm a trans woman in my early 30s and I've been on HRT for a while now. I'm trying to understand my sexuality, and I'm wondering if anyone has experienced something similar.

I know that a decrease in libido is extremely common after starting estrogen, so I'm not really asking about that. My libido did disappear for several months, but over time it gradually came back. I also went through a period where my orgasms felt much weaker, but that eventually improved too. Nowadays I can masturbate again, although much less often than before HRT (roughly once a week or even less, whereas before it was almost every day).

I'm also sapphic. I've always been attracted to women, and that hasn't changed.

The problem is that what came back doesn't feel like the same sexuality I had before.

Even before transitioning, I was never a particularly sexual person. I lost my virginity as a teenager, but then spent around 15 years without having sex and never really felt motivated to seek it out. Even back then, I wasn't very interested in conventional pornography. What I found arousing was usually more psychological or fantasy-based content rather than explicit sexual content.

When I eventually got into a relationship, I discovered that many sexual activities didn't naturally appeal to me. My partner and I found a way to make intimacy work, but looking back, I wonder if testosterone was doing more of the heavy lifting than I realized.

Now, after HRT, I have almost no interest in actual sex with another person.

It's not that I don't desire my partner specifically. I don't feel that kind of desire toward anyone.

I can still become aroused again by fantasy, stories, or psychological scenarios. I still have a libido, I can still masturbate, and I still enjoy orgasms. But I don't fantasize about having sex with people, and I don't find myself wanting real-life sexual encounters.

Sometimes I wonder if HRT didn't make me asexual, but instead revealed something that had always been there once testosterone stopped pushing me toward sex.

This has been really difficult for my relationship. My partner understandably struggles because she knows I still masturbate sometimes, but I rarely want partnered sex. From her perspective, it feels like rejection, even though that's genuinely not how I experience it.

Has anyone else experienced something similar?

I'm especially interested in hearing from trans women whose libido eventually returned, but whose interest in partnered sex never really did.

Did your sexuality fundamentally change after HRT? Did you eventually identify somewhere on the asexual spectrum, or did you find another explanation?

I'd really appreciate hearing your experiences.

Long story short, I took my kids to a 4th of July rodeo at the fairgrounds in my fairly red area of a supposedly blueish state. They have a thing called a calf scramble where all the kids 12 and under go out to chase a few calves around and try to grab some ribbons for a prize.

I waited and watched all the kids streaming back to where they belonged and mine still didn't show up. When it was clear they were all out of the arena I flagged an employee, and he told me that some of the kids got herded out a gate on the other end of the bleachers, so I limped as fast as I could down the front, then back again along the back. By the time I returned my son had shown up, but not my daughter. We did another loop of the bleachers, and I started getting really freaked out and looked for the sheriff's deputies I'd seen wandering around.

The employee had me do one more loop of the bleachers, but then the cops had me stay at the registration table so they could find me when they'd found her. That was when I started losing it. I had to do continuous slow breathing to keep from bursting into tears while surrounded by trump supporting rednecks whom I was relying on for help. It didn't help that my son started having a meltdown about not being able to see the rodeo and having to stay by me. I almost started crying again on the drive home just thinking about it.

Anyway, they found her after about half an hour. Another child had told her she could go say hi to the animals.

She was in the pen with the bulls.

Hi y'all!

I tend to see a lot of posts on here about how T tended to help people feel more comfortable with their attraction towards men/shifted them more towards that attraction.

Honestly for me I've noticed that I'm more attracted to women/femininity now. Pre-T I'd say I was more solidly bisexual, but nowadays I'd say the heteroflexible label is more accurate. Just wondering if anyone also experienced this change?

Recently, like yesterday. I’m about to book an appointment with a gender clinic. And I’ve felt this way for years. I knew that one day I’d have to confront it. I’ve been decently supported, but I never did makeup or wear dresses or anything when I was younger like alot of people I hear about. I was always into like cute girl aesthetics but I was always too scared to try it myself. I do really want to wear skirts and stuff once I get a slimmer body, but I feel like kind of a fraud because I didn’t do all that stuff before. Am I?