Would you have understood it was meant to represent non-binary if you saw it? Wanted to make it subtle, so we could understand, but others think it is an engineering joke.
hex ASCII 'n' 'b'
Nerdy enough for you? :)
I am thinking of having a subtle secret message that will evade the eyes of everyone, but will only start conversations with like minded people who might be agender. Slightly into Buddhist philosophy too, hence the spoon kid reference. So, now I have these, but couldn't really figure out which is best. Spoon as a symbol for gender and gender-bending.
Kid: Do not try and bend the spoon. That's impossible. Instead... only try to realize the truth.
There is no spoon.
Then you'll see, that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.
(Before anyone asks, yes they are AI gen, I don't have the skills to draw a straight line. :P)
Well I look androgynous (amab), and looked androgynous since I was a kid, but my role models and friends were always female, and I am romantically attracted to females as well. And, I currently associate myself closest to agender.
I told my mom that I am non-binary and she didn't take it well. (She is very scared uncertainties, and feels irresistible urge to make it certain.)
Years later, one day, we went to a restaurant, the waiter called us "Where would you like to sit ladies..." My mom apparently saw me smile.
Then it was a long argument about why don't I correct people telling I am male, whether I am lying to her and if I want to transition to female...
I said 1. by regression to mean, perfect androgynous look means people thinking you are female 50% of the time. 2. I never understood why I should not like being perceived as female, the type I can fall in love with? 3. I am reluctant for any surgery that is not entirely critical.
But the questioning got stuck with me. At times I don't mind at all and times I get body dysphoria. I got my facial hair removal and I loved it ever since.
So the question I am struggling with, what if I am actually lying to myself? What if body preference is not connected to whether I appreciate some masculine sides of me that I use in engineering?
I don't know if my currently high workload is making me dillusional.
What was your experience on this?
Center cannot hold... I don't even know what that means... Sensei vision... Human with animal power... World ending vs not ending...
I rewatched graduation episode after reading this poem which is where the phrase center cannot hold was attributed to...
W. B. Yeats’s “The Second Coming”
(To understand it, I asked an AI for line by line interpretation. The plot similarity is strikingly similar. See comment below.)
The more I watch this show, the deeper it gets.
For me as an amab,
Things I want to do and can't allow myself in public:
Wearing crop tops (I am shy going topless and want heat dissipation, and I think it looks nice)
Wearing tops with straps
Wearing nail polish, especially toes because they last longer
Fishnets
Things I can allow myself:
Short shorts
Dangling earrings
Blush
Transparent nail strengthener
A bit about me... I don't believe in genders. I am amab, presenting androgynous, but still shy about things coded as done by females, (e.g. nail polish, crop top) and also coded male (e.g. going topless, using urinal).
I am a PhD student in engineering, and in fact one of the reasons I am doing it is frictionless gender neutral title. 🙃
But one thing I realised is people doing STEM and more often people doing more studying tend to be very ordinary looking because we prefer loss aversion (i.e. social friction appears far worse than it would be) and defer gratification (i.e. end up neglecting our inner desires over a long term stability).
Therefore, I think this creates a non-causal link between successful people doing STEM and appearing "vanilla". (I would like to stress that this is not a causal link and being wise enough to realise it isn't much of a problem I think is a higher wisdom.)
Therefore, I feel like it is difficult to filter out people feeling/thinking like I do , which I would get along well with, i.e. long term focused people in STEM that are agender.
What are ways to distinguish you in the crowd? Should I put some secret agender colored object etc. so like minded people could identify me in the crowd? Where do you spend time?
I looked and felt androgynous since I was a kid. When I was a kid, I use to correct people when they call me she/madam etc. and they would apologise and get sad but for me it was minor semantics.
Now I am totally fine and "will they think I am female" is kind of a game for me. If I can fall in love with a female, why should it be so bad if people think I am one? That never made sense to me.
I wouldn't correct, but mom for example is annoyed when I don't, society gets sad when they misgender...
Why do people expect you to have such an inferior complex and if you don't have it that you aren't acting your gender, whatever that is... Identity is an illusion, and if it doesn't serve me or for efficiency than what good is it?
Can you relate?