Before incarnating, he said I don't think I want to go. His Higher Self explained why he went anyway. He was also Pleiadian
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This is from shamanic session I did with subject I call Omar. He is adult man from Houston area. During healing soul journey, he dropped into theta brainwave trance. Past childhood. Past trauma. All way to before he was born.
What he found there was not what anyone expect.
Before incarnation, Omar and his mother were together. No bodies. No space between them. Just consciousness. He describe it like this: "Like there's no separation and there's no space. I feel more like a blob than anything else." She was close, another node of awareness next to him.
Then he saw something like checklist. Experiences this life would bring. Weakness. Helplessness. Hard things. And he did not want to go.
He said: "I don't think I want to go." It will be difficult.
But then he undrestood that this is how light expands into darkness and help others. "It feels like it's a required experience." His Higher Self showed him why. The point was not to fix anything. The point was to understand. "It's not for changing. It's for understanding." You can study suffering from outside. But you only know it by living it.
His mother agreed on soul level to play the harsh role. Her mission was to make him tough enough for this world. She did it. But there was cost. Some beings volunteer for dark roles. Not because they are evil. Because the plan requires it.
When we finished, Higher Self had simple message. "Love everyone. Let go. Learn to forgive."
The Lesson
You chose this life. Even the painful parts. Not because you deserve suffering, but because before incarnating you wanted to understand something that can only be learned through direct experience. The people who hurt you may have been volunteers too. This does not excuse what happened. But it can change how you carry it.
Practical Exercise
Find quiet place where nobody will disturb you for twenty minutes. Sit or lie down, whatever is comfortable. Close eyes.
Take five slow breaths. On each exhale, let your body get heavier. Feel the weight of your arms, your legs, your head sinking into whatever supports you.
Now imagine you are standing at the edge of a vast, dark space. Not scary dark. More like the dark before stars were born. Warm. Infinite. This is the space before incarnation. Before body. Before name.
Step into it. Let yourself float. There is no ground, no direction. Just awareness.
Ask silently: "Show me the moment before I came here."
Do not force anything. Let image, feeling, or knowing come on its own. Maybe you see light. Maybe you feel presence of other beings near you. Maybe you sense a decision being made. Maybe you feel reluctance, like something inside you did not want to go. That is okay. Just observe.
If you see or feel something, stay with it. Do not analyze. Do not judge. Just be there, like you are watching a memory that is older than your body.
When you feel ready, take three slow breaths and come back. Open eyes slowly. Write down whatever you got, even if it make no sense. Especially if it make no sense. The logical mind will try to explain it away. Let it be strange.
Do this for seven days in row. First time you may see nothing. That is normal. The door opens when you stop knocking so hard. By day three or four, something usually surface. A feeling, a image, a knowing that was not there before. Trust it.