WHAT IF I could burp?
I am finally going to seek treatment for RCPD. This is my story as to why now, at 30 years old.
This morning I was thinking, "I know I have RCPD, but it doesn't bother me that much anymore. It's not a priority."
Then I thought to myself: WHAT IF I am just super uncomfortable, but I don't know it because it's the ONLY way I've ever lived and just had to cope. WHAT IF my doctors gaslighting me for my entire life has caused me to further minimize my own pain?? WHAT IF I were able to finally BURP???!
For context:
I've not been able to burp for as long as I can remember. Symptoms were worse as a child, but I think it is only better now because I avoid certain foods and activities like watermelon, citrus fruits, drinking from straws, etc. I can ONLY vomit when inebriated in some way, shape, or form and it's still a struggle, even then.
So it turns out that all my life, my doctors were gaslighting me about every single painful condition I had and I believed them. I believed them so much, that I gaslit myself. I wasn't even diagnosed with endometriosis until I went into the hospital for 3 days for a small bowel obstruction that they couldn't find the cause of. I didn't even go to the hospital for my bowel obstruction until hours after it started bc I just thought it was my period. That's how messed up my pain perception is now.
I'm 3 weeks post-op from endometriosis excision surgery where they made an incidental finding that I had embryological adhesions in my intestines. The surgeons said it was an extremely difficult procedure. My embryological adhesions had endometriosis inflammation adhesions. A LOT of it was fibrotic. It was on every pelvic organ I have. I ALREADY feel a crazy difference with my GI symptoms. I DON'T HAVE IBS; instead it turned out that my intestines were glued together, causing major dysfunction that grew more and more severe with progression of endometriosis!
ON TOP OF ALL THAT, gas has ONLY ever been able to exit my body 1 way.
So now that I know that the pain scale is severely warped for me due to being gaslit about the chronic pain that was not clinically recognized for my entire life, WHAT IF I could burp? What could it change?
I already hit my out of pocket max this year, so if they cover the procedure, WHY NOT?
WHAT. IF. I. COULD. BURP.