r/Sadness

Is there anyway to get over a situation?

Im 33 now but on my 30th birthday I wanted to throw a birthday party for myself. I invited 7 of my friends and they all seemed excited about it I planned it around everyone's schedule asked everyone if they liked the location. I said it was gonna be a Barbie picnic themed and everyone could dress up if they wanted. I said I would provide food but everyone was welcome to bring stuff if they wanted. A couple people even offered to make things. Someone even wanted to make the cake.

I got all the food ready I had my outfit ready. I was ready to go. And then all the sudden one by one people said they couldn't make it because they had work or their kids were sick or they were sick. And some people just didnt even remeber to tell me they were not coming. I asked some of them if they were still going and they thought I was talking about a different party that they were going to. I sat home compeltly alone in my barbie outfit eating the food by myself. In silence. My one friend who was supposed to make the cake even decided to text me to ask me how the party was going and I just texted her saying there is no party everyone forgot. And she just says "Oh."

Till this day I still sometimes think about it and just cry about it. That 7 people forgot about me.

I used to have big parties when I was a kid but as I got to be a teen they became very minimal. And then in my 20s they were parties with no effort at all. Even with the minimal parties I felt fine but when I became and adult the parties were just set up like it was a burden to set up. When I turned 25 my family stopped celebrating my birthday but they would celebrate others. In special ways.

So when i turned 30 I decided i would make it special for myself.​ And I was just compeltly alone.

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u/Omgusernamewhy — 6 days ago
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Praying for death

I can't take it anymore. Severe depression is going to win.

I don't know why I keep fighting this. Ive lost.

I'm sick and tired of constantly being alone. Almost 50 and I do not have a single friend.

My wife and I are complete strangers. She has tried everything to help me.

My young son doesn't care about me anymore. He lost me years ago to this fucking mental disease.

I just need to find the courage to off myself. I would actually love to pay someone to take care of this for me since it's so dam hard.

Fuck this life!

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u/Ok_Classroom_178 — 11 days ago