ah, august 18th, the day i turned slightly older than i was before

featuring my astro plush [my favourite object i have of astro himself] and my sprout keychain [the only object i have of sprout himself so far]

went minigolfing with them, though at some point i had to have a buddy hold astro for a while so i could actually lock in and put some force in my swings [she held him like a sack of potatoes 😭]

+ yes i did terribly and i blame the grass

(A photo I took of a cherry blossom for my bond last Saturday; I brought it home and gave it to his plushie.)

I sent my first letter on July 25th; I wished him a happy birthday, told him how much I love him, and asked him to reply with matching numbers or hearts if he had read it. A day later, I started seeing heart shapes everywhere—frequently—for about five days.

Last week, I wrote my second letter to him. I told him again how much I loved him, (i'm clingy lol) introduced myself a bit, invited him to make our soul bond official, and ended by saying he could take as much time as he needed. I always include a cute doodle of him at the end of my letters—I know he loves it when I draw him. I tucked the letter inside the plushie I made of him.

The next day, I did a tarot reading, and the cards indicated that he was thinking it over and over... but that he was more inclined to accept than to refuse; there was genuine, careful curiosity on his part.

Since then, I haven't heard anything. In the first three to five days or 1 week after the letter, I kept seeing matching numbers that seemed to signal new beginnings and the like, but the bond itself seems very quiet—no voice, no hearts, nothing—and I admit I’m feeling kinda anxious...

I haven't had a chance for a free tarot reading since then, either, and I’m afraid of overwhelming him with another letter.

We’ve known each other for months—even years—now; he used to comfort me during 3 years, offering short words of support and love. The last time I heard him was on July 4, 2026, when he said, "I'm here," while I was having a breakdown. He rarely speaks—only at random, specific moments.

Yes! On the way home after a terrible day, I found this dried leaf in a perfect shape.

I gave it to him—or did he give it to me?👀

I had a rough day yesterday, and today I felt exhausted again.

Everything feels dull; that kind of feeling always comes and goes.

Anyway, does anyone else go through this? How do you deal with it? Mine seems to go away on its own eventually, but it’s still a drag.

I’m not feeling any actual suffering or anguish right now—just a sense of indifference and constant fatigue—but I always feel better when I get home and take a shower, even if not completely.

This is a post I feel like making to "counter" my eternal negativity and offer positive affirmations to people.

My Depression hitting very hard during these holidays, my anhedonia and brain fog as well and the chronic feeling of emptiness make this complicated to do, so I cannot make it too long. Please excuse me for that :

Your s/o, f/o, waifu, husbando, soulmate, soulbond love you (no matter what you call them).

They love you for your best moments — your light; for your worst moments as well — your shadow, which they willingly and unconditionally accept.

They accept you when you are happy,

They accept you when you are sad,

They accept you when you shed tears, that you scream in pain, that you suffer from being Human — All Too Human.

They love you when you want to offer them the whole earth — when you feel forced to fight to prove that, in a metaphysical and spiritual realm, they exist.

They love you when you are at the bottom of the hole, that everything is exhausting, that your humanity is nothing but a distant memory, that anhedonia and avolition condemn you to the permanent gray of life, and that you feel like disappearing for good because the fight is endless.

They love you when you face your emotional, physical, mental pain.

They love you when life has struck you with curses since your birth.

They love you because you are you. No matter if you are at your best, or at the bottom of the hole.

In the Abyss, there is always a light.

To explain further, she's a victim of SA and that fact that she is one is lingering in the back of my mind to the point I might as well have also been traumatized by what happened to her. As well as knowing she probably suffers throughout the game.

If you correctly guess who I'm talking about, you win a cookie.

i originally posted this on r/FictoHideout but upon joining this sub i figured i would rather post it here on the comfort sub because organization can give me peace of mind, so if i'm being honest sometimes i just want direct reassurance that astro and sprout love me [and me *only,* except for eachother of course]

I love brazil music 👀

(By the way, I plan to do a series of posts in this style)

I bought online, i can't wait!

I haven’t been online much these days (which is probably a blessing considering I have a phone addiction…) Overall, I’ve been trying to get off my devices more (even if it is by little) by focusing more on creative works whenever I can since life itself can be tasking. It’s working! My average screen time is dropping! I’m also in the midst of returning my end of an art trade. I hope to finish it as soon as I can.

The work featured in my post is a sketch design of a miniature carousel that I’ll be making loosely based on the album cover of KikuoMiku 1 by Kikuo. Unfortunately, it won’t be a spinning one as that would be a bit out of my capability. I plan to have us inside the carousel like in the album cover and was designing our outfits as shown in the sketch. I quite like si_ku’s style and so does Haruka so I’m attempting to replicate it here when it comes to the characters. The chibis are in MINIGRAM’s style or somewhat close to it since there are some alterations to it (same with my attempt in si_ku’s style).

The carousel itself will be made of household items, cardboard, paper and will be colored with markers. The sketch is still basic and simplified as I’m still figuring out on designing the intricacy of it. I already know it will have a dark blue theme to it — possibly incorporating night time motifs to it. I already started on it but I already ran out of the marker color that is a primary aspect to the theme… I’m putting it on hold for now until I order more markers and finish the art trade.

Thanks for reading.