NEET Prep is suffocating (a long rant )
Hello you beautiful people of reddit I am class 12th student preparing for neet 2027...I study in aakash in a tier 3 city and have opted semi dummy school setting
I always wanted to be a doctor not becoz of family pressure or money or anything ..the main reason is because I always have loveed biology as a subject ! It is really interesting to me to know about how this wonderful biological machine works and how life behaves ! Science as a subject for me is my love! I love astronomy too! but i love these subjects to study and to gain knowledge I love to study them
But I feel that nowadays whatever I study is for cracking a exam not to learn and gain knowledge the way i approach education has a whole as changed and I dont like this..the moment I started to think like is this this relevant to neet i knew what this system has did to me..I no longer enjoy studies I see it as a hectic task unenjoyable and forced
okay keeping that aside neet demands everything from you, your hobbies, social life, fitness goals all must be sacrified , same things all day wake up study solve go to coaching/school and same ..be trapped in your room with your books and keep studying
for a highly introverted and socially anxious person like me its very hard..I dont even have friends in coaching and school..it feels so lonely and empty always ..plus when you have insecurities and zero self confidence in you ..your life starts to feel like you are drowning in opaque waters when no one can see you
and then parents and teachers and all those mountains of expectations on you..I mean yeah it is there duty but its alot now I hate that they all expect so much from me and when I get less marks I feel so sad to see their face.. once in bus i cried becoz of my marks and a stranger next to me tried to console me lol it was crazy embrassing
and then school ahh hell of a place the thing is my school is regualr but only given me permission to not attend and appear for all exams so students and teachers there dont like me
also in coachiing all my male classmates are bullies retards they think they can make fun of anyone and label it as a joke to get away ..screw them
so from tomorrow I have my school practical exams beware i never really attended the praticals so I am dead then from 31 I have theory exams and ofc they willl take in chapters that arent done in my coaching yet so I suffer and also I have got a 720 marks test in coaching at 2nd september same day as my bio half hearly and I havent prepared for that at all so basicallyy I am zero from all sides damn feels so scarey what what do I even do atp and oho if i dont perform well in school I have to go regular so I am expected to perform good in everythiing but everyone
lol imagine guys I have PE parctials and I cant run for long or do a pushup (comes in PE parcticals btw) so yeah i am screwed in everything lol
my mental and physical health is ruining and I just want this to be over I am so done with this shit just give me a college now lol
Thank you for reading till here ! you are a kind person!