u/-KansasCityShuffle

I developed aphantasia in my late teens and was devastated that I couldn’t read books anymore in the way I used to. I was always a kid who had her nose in a book as I had undiagnosed adhd and a very abusive home life. I used to get grounded for reading too much. I also have agoraphobia due to, well, reasons.

I didn’t read for years, I kept trying and nothing stuck and I would just get frustrated and give up and go back to watching tv or playing video games.

Well, holy shit. This book just struck me from almost the get go. The way she describes Constance hiding when the door is knocked at, the way she shrinks when people are walking around the house and looking into windows, I had to keep rereading those passages because I couldn’t believe how well I related to what she was writing. And then I read that Shirley Jackson herself had agoraphobia and it all made sense.

i asked my boyfriend to read it as well and he was just like, yeah. It‘s fine. He didn‘t relate to any of it like I did and I waffled at him for half an hour about what I found so moving and he said he hadn’t ever read a book that moved him like that. I mean, I’m 36 and the only other book I found that moved me like that was the Harry Potter one where Sirius Black dies and Harry was broken. He thought he had finally been rescued from his abusive life and it was ripped away from him

Anyway, just wanted to tell someone, I guess. I really liked this book.

hi there,

I’ve tried to look it up and also to send a log through AdGuard but can’t make heads or tails of it. I have an iPhone 15 and soo many websites on safari recognise AdGuard and won’t work until I switch it off. They usually seem to be smaller recipe blogs, if that helps.

I have sent through the form to AdGuard to let them know as much information as possible about what was happening and never got a response, or even if I was meant to.

I was paying for premium up until last month and tried with the dns then as well and it was still happening.

I have all of the annoyances enabled as well as obviously adblocking and privacy. I use an external vpn.

would anyone have any ideas what this keeps happening? I stopped paying because it’s basically become useless to me and I am stating to look elsewhere is case there might be something a bit more suitable or easier to fix for myself. I never had this issue with android and adblockers.

thank you!