Anyone else crying daily?
I’ve never cried this much in my life. It’s either crying about feeling sick or having complicated emotions about the pregnancy.
I was never someone who felt like it was their purpose in life to be a mom, never fantasized about babies etc. I’m not a ‘kid person’ really. But I’ve really warmed to the idea of starting a family in the past year, and my husband and I got pregnant literally within 3 weeks of trying. (I know that’s a blessing and we’re very lucky. But I also experienced it as a massive shock and quite terrifying.)
Now I feel a complete loss in my confidence and sense of self. My husband and dog smell bad to me and I can’t snuggle them. Can’t eat normal food, am sleeping poorly, feel sick and drained most of the time. I’m almost 11 weeks and I feel like I’m trapped in a repeat of the same day over and over. I can’t imagine ever feeling like myself or feeling confident again.
I’ve found a perinatal therapist and plan to start therapy soon to for support. But it feels so taboo and wrong to be feeling negative and miserable, like there’s something wrong or I’m not made for this.
I’m sorry for how much of a bummer this post is. I’m just wondering if any of this is normal, or if anyone else is feeling this way. This group has been such a comfort to me.