Feeling like I wouldn't be good enough for my f/o (vent)
Did you guys ever felt like "my f/o wouldn't love me back if they were real?", I have these thoughts it's been a while and it's getting more and more frequent. Mostly because I'm extremely ugly (I literally have ugliest face in the world, you guys have no idea) and real people already confirmed this to me, even friends or guys I've dated years ago said than I'm "not pretty". When I fell in love with my f/o again, we're together for 3 years now, I felt so happy to the point I've started loving myself, thinking about us together somehow felt right, and I didn't need to "search for someone's approval" because I didn't cared about anyone but him.
But now, I'm being way too self-conscious of my appearence and how awful I look. I feel like thinking about my f/o loving me back would be so forced, because I'm so ugly and dumb, he would never want me if he was real. I love him so much, but it seems like our relationship is so wrong. I know that he's not real, so there's no way for him to "reject me", but it's still so depressing to me.