u/Abject-Town2465

For context I was abused (beaten with a belt) as a child, had horrible parents and lost a leg at 22 Years old. I'm 45 now, after years of being stared at in public. Walking into rooms only to find everyone fall silent, staring at my legs. Not to mention strangers walking up and asking "howd you lose that leg?" Plus all the crazy people are drawn to me for some reason. When the pandemic hit, I was actually happy about the isolation. I had an excuse. The pandemic is long over, but the habit stuck. Now the only time I see people is when there are missionaries trying to conn me into going to their church. I want friends, not opportunists. That's all I seem to get. People want to use me for social clout, or "help" me. They even go so far as to force it onto me. I don't need help, I've lived with 1 leg for half my life (more than 22 years as an amputee). This does not stop them, I hate pity, these scumbags feel sorry for me. I feel sorry for anyone who joins a cult, I'm not buying. (LDS are so greedy and opportunistic).

I could use some advice on how and where to obtain some friends, I live in a small town in southern Utah (which is horrible BTW). I'm aware of my negativity, and realize it drives people away. I could also use some advice on how to tell potential friends from religious nuts and local conn artists. (They prey on the elderly and disabled here, it's St. George, UT. This is nothing new here.) I've had people here pose as friends only to try to drag me into their church or whatever. I was so crushed, I thought I made a friend. Nope.

I stumbled on to an out of bounds area toward the end of the Mt Fuji stage. To reach it you must pogo off of one NPC and then another flying one to gain enough height to climb up a wall. I can't be the first, only person who has encountered it?

I'll post a link to a longer more detailed version of it later.

Out of bounds-Mt Fuji

So, I found out recently that one of my favorite guitarists of all time Marty Friedman, probably the best guitarist Megadeth ever had. Has been in Japan living as a Japanese citizen for more than 20 years. I looked up who played the guitar in a song on the recent anime and was surprised to find he didn't drop off the map as it seemed. If you watch anime you probably have heard his music as some point. Also he's a fluent Japanese speaker and appears on a lot of TV programs?

I know Japan has a lot of metal heads, but is he really that popular?

https://preview.redd.it/zxurmhkckc4h1.jpg?width=378&format=pjpg&auto=webp&s=ae4cd46ec00b66f6aa752446f88d3a6cd94a349b

I think this photo was from "gods of metal" Tokyo?

When I started to learn Japanese, I noticed the written word is very challenging. Aside from having no talent for the ink brush, sumi & stone, or calligraphy. There is Kana, Kanji, etc. Many thousands of Kanji characters, 44 letters per alphabet (of which there are several, at least 2 still in use for translating sounds). I'll admit I've had more success with the spoken language, watching Japanese TV helped a lot. Hearing, speaking with native speakers helps. There are a number of Japanese books I want to read in the original language without a translation but I'm still using a translator device to assist with the characters I don't recognize. (Translated books always lose the poetic wording of the original, are better read in the original language.)

English on the other hand has more words than most other languages in the world, 26 letters in the modern Greek alphabet. English has 470,000 to 1,000,000 words. Arabic has the most at 12,000,000 words (most of which are variants or conjunctions). The avg. adult English speaker will only use between 11,000 and 35,000 words in their dialogue. It seems there may be challenges both ways. I'm curious weather people find it difficult or not. What are you're thoughts (about learning English)? Is English hard (for a Japanese speaker to learn)? If so, what parts did you struggle with?