Today was hard
Today I just feel so defeated. I went to a (small) birthday gathering with my puppy, already knowing it would be horrendous because she was already overtired before we even left but I guess I hoped she would calm down and sleep in a quiet corner…. I’m not mad at my dog at all, more mad at myself for going because I’m a people pleaser and afraid to say no, but I should have prevented her and myself from having a hard time. I just feel so isolated at the moment and I’m constantly scared of making a mistake. She absolutely hates resting, especially when I am out of sight. I keep reading posts about leaving their 12 week old puppies alone for hours and the highest we have progressed is that I can go to the toilet in peace, I don’t dare to leave her alone at all because as soon as she barks once I’m scared to trigger separation anxiety 🙈 the trainer I planned on having has injured herself won’t come for another two weeks. I would have never thought that it would be hard to get her to sleep - I anticipated destructive behavior, potty accidents or having to take her out to potty at night, but that’s all easy peasy. Every active skill she picks up on so fast, walking with her is relatively easy, but she can’t fucking relax anywhere but forced in her crate or weirdly enough, in the kitchen 😭😭😭
Edit: sorry for the missing words, I’m so tired today and I know resting and being alone are two different issues but they sort of tie together in our case 🙈