Withdrawals are eating me alive
I was a cig smoker from 15-18 then quit because I was coughing up blood not because I had the overwhelming urge to quit.
I then got introduced to juul when I was 21 I’ve quit vaping for a little over a year between now and then I don’t know wtf happened. But now I’m going like 6? 7 years or so of constant vaping, I have a big lung capacity so I take monster hits too.
I literally cannot AFFORD to vape anymore and it’s aging me prematurely 2 things I’m deeply concerned about right now.
I got some nic patches prescribed to me and I’m on day 3 of the patch
Yesterday wasn’t easy but today is just insane
I have had like 3 meltdowns today I just spent an hour parked on some side street crying. Im so fkn angry and irritable and what’s making me more angry is that I know that if I get a vape I’m going to hate myself the moment that dopamine rush pulls in, cuz it’ll mean I almost got away.
There is a convenience store that I get my vapes at some times about a 20 second drive from here.
I don’t even know what I’m asking or saying 😭 I’m going a little coo coo for coco puffs.
Any advice that isn’t like the usual stuff I guess?