u/AccomplishedBat3274

Hi everyone some insights would really help. I’ve been truly lost recently, I have a feeling I’m transforming again and I don’t recognise myself. I was way different past 5 years ago from what I am today not in a bad way, but for the best. But the past still traumatises me; my love life has been traumatic- although they mention that scorpion moon hates liars I’ve lied a lot growing up.
Always was an avoidant , left the relationship if it got too boring or the other person turned really insecure( I felt like I’ve never done anything wrong) maybe it’s the energy I gave off anyways, My current partner is a cancer sun, Gemini moon, I love him with all of my heart but I’ve noticed my mood switches up pretty quick and I’m always criticising and is vary of his feelings about me.
I also tend to abuse substances but pretty okay with stopping them. Why is that?