u/AccomplishedCow2920

I had a dream last night where I was with my 2-3year old self. I just kept staring at her, picking her up and hugging her, and it was a very emotional time. I felt like I failed her, like I ruined what she could've been, and just this insane amount of guilt. At the same time, there was this overwhelming feeling of joy, I'm not too sure how to explain it better. Has anyone experienced anything similar? What could it mean? Any input is valued and appreciated. ☺️

My boss used to be great, now I'm in hell every day.
Anytime anyone else makes an error with their documentation or files, I get blamed - no matter how it happened and by who, she finds a story to say how I made the mistake, convinces herself it's true, and then tells other people the stories as if they were fact. I've gotten multiple write ups for mistakes I never made.
I had an emergency call last week, an ACTUAL emergency - and she has consistently thanked me for never being on my phone for years, there's literally days it never even leaves my bag (I have a 1099 job so technically this is at my discretion). After my emergency call, she suddenly is obsessed with telling me my phone is distracting me and I'm "getting paid to take personal calls", that I need to "stop being on my phone so much", and that I am making errors because I am getting distracted by my phone (????!!!!!).
She "shows off" to other people by shitting on me, multiple people have made me aware of this, and it's typically if someone newer is around. Like she tries to bond with these people by telling them how horrible I am at everything.
She yells at me and brings up personal things about me/my life, in front of people who have no business knowing my personal business.
She tells me very specific ways to do things, I comply, and when she changes her mind (everyone who knows her knows that she is VERY back and forth), she tells me I fucked everything up, did things wrong, misunderstood her, and "can't understand basic English"/"dont know how to use common sense".
Today's drama is I now am not allowed to laugh at work. If she hears me laugh, it means I'm not working, I'm distracted, and I'm making errors that can "cost her the company".
The list could go on forever, and I am in the process of quitting. I already quit over 50% (demoted myself and took a huge pay cut that I cannot afford), but honestly it feels so worth it. I have an interview tomorrow, I'm really hoping to be able to fully quit this place soon.

My boss used to be one of the best people I know. She was amazing and I was constantly telling other people to come work here so that they can have the "best boss in the world" - and I truly meant it. But she underwent a lot of stressful events over the last year or so, and it seems that it had drastically changed her personality, and for some reason, all of that anger and blame falls onto me. I have developed an ulcer, a heart condition, high cholesterol, and high blood pressure all within the last year as well. Whether or not it's related to this insane work stress is up for debate.

Thanks for letting me rant about all my work drama 🤣🖤

I thought I had the perfect job for me. I was REALLY loving it, for awhile. But lately my boss (who I have been friends with for 12 years - I know, I know) has been under a ton of stress, and it ALL gets let out on me. To the point where I go home crying, if I can even make it out of there before the crying starts. My boss was very indecisive and uneducated about certain things, and continuously turned it into my problem despite my college degree and knowledge that used to get praised.

Lately, I will be told to do a task, some of which have been outside my comfort zone. I ask all the right questions (or so I thought) to clarify exactly what I need to do. Sometimes the boss didn't check, but when they did, they always praised me for how perfectly I did things. Then, a few weeks-months later, they change their mind for whatever reason on how something should be done. Instead of "hey, actually, can you re-do this *this* way?", I get yelled at about how I fucked up and am making a ton of mistakes, don't know how to follow direction, don't understand things, etc. It's gotten to the point where I was told I'm getting a write up for doing exactly what I was told to do.

So I quit yesterday. I have been job hunting endlessly for over a week now, and wanted to wait until I had something secured before taking this step, but I really couldn't take it anymore. It gave me an ulcer. Heart problems. Cortisol problems. My stress and anxiety are through the roof, because of this job.

I thought insurance would be a good route to go, because I had obtained my license a few years ago (it has since lapsed), and thought hey, I could try this again. Remote position, flexible hours, I would love to be able to make my own schedule. I can't seem to find anything. At all.

Are there other jobs out there that are remote, flexible, part time, and actually in need? I know the job market is tough, but I wasn't expecting THIS.

I don't regret my decision, I'm scared this job would've actually killed me in the long run. But reality is starting to set in that I don't have anything lined up, and there's plenty of bills to be paid.

Sorry for the rant, everyone I know is work-related at this point, so I don't have many people to confide in and seek advice on the matter.

And no, I do not wish to pursue legal action, even though I apparently am owed thousands of dollars for being wrongfully classified.