Feels like I’m in a simulation
Im a 28F whose one tonsil grew and grew until it was past my uvula blocking my airway. While it was in my throat, the ENT biopsied it and found no cancer.
But once it was removed, eureka—large B cell non Hodgkin’s lymphoma. I was totally healthy and holistic before this…I’ve done 3 rounds of rchop and there’s no evidence of disease and even though I’m supposed to do 4 rounds, I stopped for now waiting for signatera. I always felt healthy aside from my tonsil and as we know in this sub, signing up for treatment isn’t something we do for fun…but I just don’t trust the insurance or medical system at all and I’m paranoid this is not real.
Not sure what I’m looking for here and maybe this is the wrong sub but I’m struggling with the mental mindfuck of having felt my most healthy before my diagnosis and now sitting here bald with fucked taste buds and tens of thousands in medical bills looming.