Struggling Convert
Hi i am a mew catechumen. I started my orthodox journey visiting both eastern and oriental Orthodox Church. The Coptic holy week was something that made me fall in love with the church. However my struggles are i feel like 1 in 100 plus and that its hard to meet people in the church and that im going to be an outsider for a while. The abounas are both very nice and have welcomed me with open arms but are hard to get time with one on one to answer questions and talk about my struggle with fully knowing im in the right place. I don’t know what the feeling is and i don’t think its gonna be a physical feeling idk.
How do I know what it is? How do I feel connected to liturgy when i have to follow the screen sometimes for translation? How do i not feel like an outsider?
What are the views on the American Coptic church as those are options near where i plan to move one day? I want to be a part of the church and community and one day a reader but could i be as a convert?
Thank you