my love, please think twice
C,
Since you rejected me overnight—even though we were supposed to be a team, supporting and helping each other—and you disappeared without a trace of emotion (or almost none), it sends a chill down my spine. I can’t imagine my future without you. I mean, I can, but everything is gray. It’s as if, in this future where you’re no longer there, everything is dull, sad, gray, and aimless.
In a vision where you’re there, where our love heals and guides us, everything is warm, inviting—a hearth in a beautiful country home with a fireplace and the smell of fresh bread baking. Love, laughter, a magnificent library, tender embraces, and our bodies giving in to passion. Looking in the direction where you are, I could describe it for hours. But you chose to abandon this vision—I am largely responsible for that—and I am putting all my energy into working through my traumas, to become the man I want to be. And when I am, where will you be? Will you have already returned to my side? I would love that so much, but we know it’s more likely that you’ve become a stranger, who will always hold the biggest place in my heart. Who will be there with a bitter taste of regret. I believe in the love of a lifetime, and that was you. And it’s just as much a shame for you, because I am devoted to you as no one else ever will be.
I am sitting in the morning at the diner on the corner…