Do fucking better.
In the last 11 months my family has experienced loss after loss after loss, and I've worked a retail job the entire time. First my baby niece died, then my father figure, then a sister in law, then two dear friends/exes, and my best friend/adopted sister, all dying within less than 3 months of each other.
My best friend died at 26 3 weeks ago and I've just had ENOUGH. The number of people I get a day who want to treat me weird because they don't have anything better going on is an actual crime against humanity. You're an asshole because you're bored, and inexperienced, btw.
The fact that I have to hold your hand with a smile on my face while you berate me for things you don't understand, while I bury, and cremate over half the people I love in less than 11 months is enough that I am very surprised I haven't snapped. I have in the terms of telling someone "this is what I have going on, you should be more thoughtful.", but I mean like, really snap. Like I understand why people go postal kind of snap.
I'm to the point where I'm in active derealization 100% of the time just to get through it, and am still putting 110% into showing up for complete strangers that can't just be bothered to be kind. If you're that person, from the very bottom of my heart, fuck you. Rant over.