u/Adept_Theory5815

I’m 22 and honestly going through one of the hardest periods of my life right now.

Last week I found out I was pregnant, and almost immediately after, me and my boyfriend completely fell apart. We’d already been struggling for months because of his anger issues, but things became extremely intense after the pregnancy. The fighting got so bad that even my mom became involved.

I ended up having to go through an abortion alone because I realized I cannot continue this relationship anymore.

He’s been verbally abusive and physically aggressive before (shoving, pushing, choking), and I know logically I shouldn’t stay, but emotionally it’s hard because he’s also been the person taking care of me in many ways. He reassures me, helps me financially, has been faithful, and was there for me during school, so it’s confusing grieving someone who hurt you but also loved you in certain ways.

I’m also a new grad trying to find stability financially, and I’ve had bad luck with friendships too, so this honestly feels like the loneliest phase of my life. Part of me keeps wanting to go back because I’m terrified of being alone.

This was my first serious relationship, and I learned a lot about how I want to love and be loved, but now the dating world feels scary and hopeless to me.

I guess I’m posting because I want insight from an astrology perspective. Does my chart show eventual healthy love and stability? Or am I someone who’s destined to experience painful/intense relationships?

I’d appreciate honesty, but please be kind because I’m already emotionally overwhelmed right now.

Obviously unplanned ! A few days ago I had moon 5H conjunct my natal Uranus 5H but I didn’t take a test til today and It read as positive :( not 100% sure as I’ve never experienced this but just wanna see if my astrology supports this rn !