People keep thinking i’m lying about my hearing worsening
Disclaimer: I haven’t went to the doctor about this, I plan to next week
I’ve been losing my hearing for the past month. I have gotten a variety of responses. The most frequent one is people doubting me. Today, I was in a languages lesson using headphones. These were shitty and cheap so they leaked sound which was annoying. I had them to the full volume because I couldn’t hear them otherwise. This went fine for awhile until my cover teacher told me off for it.
I tried to explain that I couldn’t hear otherwise but she just said “oh really?” in a patronising, condescending voice. I decided to spend the next 20 minutes doing nothing as I was angry. However, what I have realised is how often people doubt me. Or think that I choose to not listen to them. My inability to hear them well isn’t a choice. I don’t want to be an inconvinience to her or anyone else. However, they were all wearing headphones and working too. A few friends and even my parent has brushed me off.
I can’t speak for anyone else, I know I am only new to this feeing. Although it is so infuriating when others make me feel like i’m going insane when there are times that i want to die solely because I can’t hear my friends from across the dinner table.