I hate this habit of my Mom and Dad.
Recently after giving neet, my mom and dad after hearing my marks are super angry. They hit me, scold everyday, compare with some 10th grader and other neighbours. And all these everyday makes me really sad inside. but thik hai ok i understand im not doing good thats why they are like this.
But yesterday around 3 am they checked my phone, everything. i kept password but my mom the day before yesterday asked whats the password, i didnt mind it at all ki kiya hi karenge. but yesterday she secretly checked my phone while i was asleep.
she checked calls, whatsapp chats, instagram, discord, youtube, my test ke marks, everything.
One thing i dont like is Why did they checked while asleep, i would have given them the phone myself.
and also Ik my parents, jab bhi test pe marks nhi aate they are so so furious bro like itna kuch bolte hai like for example im a bit short (north east se hu) and they say about my height and all ki terese kuch nhi hoga, you wont even get a labour job etc and kabhi kabar toh bolte hai tujhe coaching se ghasit ke maarunga etc. and to avoid all these scoldings i sometimes edit my test ke marks to few marks, like agar 400 hai toh usko 470 490.
and sometimes i didnt went for test like out of 43 test i gave 37 or 38 .... cuz mera syllabus complete nhi thaa, i coudnt even score in starting, And yesterday 3 am they saw everything in my phone and forwaded the results and all to there phone.
Now its almost 7 am im writing this, and they are doing there daily work as if nothing happened. but im surely getting bad feeling about this, ki kuch toh hone wala and idk bro what to do, plus im studying for reeneet again, i dont want to get depressed again.
I just hate this house genuinely, everything is so toxic, maa baap ka agar job nhi ho then that doesnt mean ki sara bhoj bete pe daale, its on them that they arent getting job, let the child live his life.
also this is a burner account.