u/Affectionate_Cup9972

Dear lord, how far have I fallen that I'm starting to question morality now?

Ok, do you think that morals are inherently hierarchical? Why or why not?

I'm personally starting to abstain from words like

"good, bad, right, or wrong." So now, I'm replacing them with words like 'harmful'...

"Wolf-dog breeding is harmful." I just can't see it as not harmful.

I started off as a moral realist human rights theorist, to moral subjectivism, and now whatever the hell this is. I don't know if I can call myself an amoralist though.

First, I want to start with what made me drawn to this philosophy in the first place. And I think it starts with a little independent game known as Undertale that made me receptible to this philosophy when I looked it up a year ago. There was also a lot of other media such as magical girls dululu stuff, and other anime (cough, Mob Psycho 100) that helped me be more receptable, and open to pacifism. Not to say that every media had pacifism that in mind, BUT - they taught mercy, and compassion at least. In fact I think it's kind of ingrained in me that whenever I'm watching media where the antagonist is getting talked down by the compassionate protagonist, emotional moment - and the antagonist dies from some outside force... I hate that shit...

And yet there was also something that made me open to this philosophy - my family's a bunch of gun nuts, lol. Even as a "far-leftist". I don't think I could bring myself to own a gun, with or without pacifism.

Now I've heard of pacifism in passing before, and never in a positive light. So one day I got board then looked it up - no build up whatsoever.

What I found? - Pacifism is not a monolith, there's conditional to absolute pacifism, and to not confuse pacifism with passivism. Then I dived further more, and it resonated with me. Not sure if it was because of who I am, or it's because of who I wanted to be.

Problems trying to adopt this philosophy:

1. It conflicted with my leftist views. "Do I condemn slave revolts?" Comes into mind. And I know that there are plenty of pacifists who reluctantly accept, or reluctantly support slave revolts. I just couldn't reconcile it.

2. Why is violentce 'bad'? And what does that even mean?

3. Pacifism is a moral philosophy, and morals are about what one/people should do or not do. Are people who find themselves in a violent situations yet use violence as a first or second response in that situation a moral failure, and that they must hold themselves accountable? Are those who are nonviolent "morally superior"? I think not. I think not. And I cannot find myself to apply pacifism onto the world.

4. I'm starting to become disillusioned with morals, or at least labeling things as good, bad, evil, right, wrong. It's starting to feel harmful actually. It's terrifying...

This is not a debate, I'm just rambling about my feelings.