Need some advice and encouragement
Hey guys, I guess I'm just looking for some advice or maybe just a reality check from people who’ve been through something similar.
I recently turned 21 and just finished my second year of community college doing prerequisites for the ADN program. My original plan was to start this coming fall, but I failed the HESI, so now I have to retake it and hopefully start in the spring instead.
Honestly, this delay is hitting me harder than I expected. I already spent two years on prerequisites, and the ADN itself is another two years. So instead of having my BSN in four years total, I’ll have my ADN in about four years, and then by the time I bridge to my BSN, I’ll be 24 or 25.
The only reason I’m taking this route is because it’s the most financially smart option for me right now. But mentally, it’s hard seeing people my age already in BSN programs or graduating sooner. I feel like I’m falling behind.
Not only that, my GPA is a 2.7 right now, which makes me feel even worse lol. I’m retaking classes and trying to improve, but I’m getting frustrated with myself because I feel like no matter how hard I study, I never get the grade I want the first time. I always have to do it a second time to understand or get a good grade. Also, I've never been academically smart like my peers growing up. I've always struggled a lot, and I'm just mad at myself.
I know nursing isn’t supposed to be a race, but lately it’s hard not to feel like I've messed up my future or that I'm falling behind. Has anyone else felt this way? especially if school never came naturally to you. How did you stop being so angry at yourself and stop comparing?
Thanks for reading. I could really use some honesty and encouragement right now.