u/Aggravating-Let-4827

I work nights, I am predominantly online during the hours of 9 pm EST to about 5-7 am EST depending on what’s going on. I am on almost every night with the exception of when one of the two projects were paused I was off and on as it was slow. Anyways, per my last post I got the confirmation that I’m literally the ghost of the project working behind the scenes even around TPM. 😒

I woke up this morning to an email from one of the two projects I’m on. I am literally on this project to only do EPM related work and not tasks. I responded to the email but waking up to this email just solidifies my feelings.

Obviously there was more to the email but I had to redact crucial information as it has certain details that pertain to this project.

“We hope you are doing well.
We noticed that your recent activity on the (not saying name) project has been lower than expected. We wanted to check in and understand if you are facing any blockers, issues, or challenges that may be affecting your participation on the project.

As a reminder, a minimum contribution of 1 task per week is required to keep your contract active on the project. Continued low or no activity may result in contract deactivation.”

In some ways this is comical at best, I know a lot of it is just a tap of a button and it’s sent to everyone on a report but in other ways it’s not as I’m literally the 2nd EPM on both projects and am on ALL slack channels including management. This is a relatively small project under 500 combined between both projects that I cover.

I was brought onto a project to initially help with on boarding… great, I can do that! But then it got to “you’re needed over night, we need someone on at all times in case there’s a problem” okay, great! I’m on at night I had started doing 9 pm EST until about 4-5 am EST when the other EPM gets on since they’re UK. But I’m on and other than answer a message here and there, assist with one or two on boarding questions I’m aimlessly scrolling through on boarding, I’m marking who was on while I was and I’m messaging people trying to get them to task but that’s all. I feel like I’m just there but not there at the same time. I’m not on there to work on tasks as they’re not within my field or range of work. When things get talked about I’m just there in the background. I just feel lost right now, I’m grateful for the opportunity to make something but I feel like I’m contributing just a small fraction here. I’m technically linked to two projects right now, one will end in a week and a half and the other one will end in two and a half weeks. I just feel like a ghost here, I’m here but I’m not and it’s really depressing. I know I’m going to hear “why are you complaining? You’re being paid to just be there” yes, but I want to be of value and feel like I’m contributing something. I’m not on a traditional Mercor project, these are super specific where you have to fit within a very small specialty. I was told “you’ll be doing this and this and this” but none of that has really happened and if I encounter something I’m told to figure it out and this isn’t a project you just figure things out because it’s not hard to screw something up so I just make endless excel sheets with information.

I’ve been around Mercor for awhile now but this week has been nothing but weird and awkward encounters that make me feel completely uncomfortable in the slack channels from other workers (not EPM or higher but Team Leader). I’m used to the 100+ messages in slack as well as those people messaging me on places like LinkedIn because well… it’s not hard to find someone when their name is out there.

How do you handle these awkward encounters? By awkward I mean comments that sound of self harm towards themself and then awkward flirting messages where they outright say “I really like you, this is why I’m attracted to you” kinda comments. My SPL’s are MIA and I have no EPM to revert to on this instance as we’re indefinitely paused and the one person we were told to possibly go to isn’t answering either and they’re TPM 2 on my project. The only active channel on the project is my TL+ channel but my issue is with someone that has access to this channel as well.

If this wasn’t channel accessible I’d have an outlet for this issue so advice from someone would be greatly appreciated especially from someone at a higher level.