The love that almost broke me,then saved my life❤️
The day I met you, 8 October 2020, I was a quiet person.
Not just silent in words, but full of thoughts I never shared.
I used to imagine things others couldn’t see, and I chose to keep them locked inside me.
Then you came into my life, and for the first time, it felt like I wasn’t alone in my own mind.
Like there was someone who could understand the way I think, the way I feel.
With you, I could share everything, my dreams, my fears, my insecurities, even the smallest pieces of my daily life.
I didn’t realize it back then, but that was love.
I only understood it when I had to live without you.
After losing you, my mind became a place I couldn’t escape from.
I thought about you constantly.
I would wake up anxious, sometimes because I saw you in my dreams… and then lost you there too.
And waking up felt like losing you all over again.
Somewhere inside me, I believed you missed me too.
I could feel it.
But my ego was louder. It told me love is not real. It told me to move on.
But I couldn’t.
I had never imagined I could love someone more than myself.
It sounded stupid to me before.
Now I realize love is not logical. It is something you feel, something that connects deeper than words.
When one soul hurts, the other feels it.
That feeling… it scared me.
I tried to forget you.
I tried everything.
I even tried to end my life… but I failed.
And after that, a different chapter began.
I thought I was healing, but I was just running.
I tried things I once promised myself I never would.
Substances, distractions… anything to escape.
But instead of healing me, they destroyed me mentally, physically, emotionally.
I became numb.
And in that numbness, I thought maybe I could try again.
Maybe I could find love in someone else.
But every attempt made things worse.
I saw the darker side of love.
People using emotions, pretending, taking advantage.
It broke whatever was left inside me.
So I stopped.
I left everything behind.
The substances, the chaos, the darkness.
And in that silence, I felt something I never felt before.
I felt God.
And somehow… I felt you in that too.
You saved me, even when you weren’t there.
If I had never met you, I might not be here today to tell this story.
Your love took me through darkness… and led me to something greater.
I don’t know if I deserve your forgiveness.
But if I ever had it, even for a moment… I would be at peace.
I never believed love could save a life.
But now I know it can.
And I am grateful that I met you…
when no one else could understand me, but you did.
Maybe… in another life. ❤️