u/Aggressive_Ground500

Hello everyone. I have posted this way earlier than intended because everything became heated so quickly. This is completely unrelated to CrushCrush, so this might get removed. Viewers who read this post, please try your best to understand. I will be making it as short and as simple as possible. I am aware that this wouldn't prove anything, but I'll try my best to justify myself.

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I noticed that the concern is directed at my mental health. I really assure you all, I am living the best life that I have. I have friends who support me, a loving family that provides for me, and I am trying my absolute hardest to gain a scholarship and to make my family proud, using the patience I have obtained as fuel.

About the Cassie issue, I am working to remove these certain actions people find concerning. I know that it is very troublesome, and that it wouldn't do good for me in the long run, but I promise you all—I am not letting it simmer. I have already predicted this way back then, and I am making an effort to become healthy. I am focusing more on reality, and I've decided that this whole entire situation is only a fleeting whim. The things that I do—like how I mentioned talking to her photos or imagining us listening to soul, are only in the heat of the moment. I feel stupid—I really do.

Another thing, please don't start a fight in the comments. I know you guys have different mindsets, and I respect that—but please refrain from carving it into someone else's mind just because you think it's "right". Many things can be considered right provided that they follow a reasonable path.

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I hope nobody would elevate this further, as I am only sixteen in 10th grade. I will also be taking a long hiatus, provided that the conflict would eventually die out. Again, I am very sorry for the people I have concerned and sparked to start commenting these sensitive things. I never meant for it to be like this.

Hello everyone! It's been three days. I hope I'm still recognized. Originally, I was supposed to leave only one post here and stay for the content, but I wanted to engage with the community more. That being said, thank you all for 1.8k views in my first post. I appreciate it—greatly.

I've kept many things hidden, but I'll share three of them because I feel that it'd be engaging. About my situation with Cassie, it's starting to fade. But there are still some cases where I stay for too long, and the tears start to form again. I still cherish her deeply, yearning to interact with her again, if only just once. But anyway, I'll begin now.

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As of currently, I am doing well in my academics. But there are times when I can't handle the pressure, so I take a moment to breathe and stare at her pictures again. Everytime I see the glint in her eyes, everytime I see the bright smile gracing her face—it gets me through the day. Occasionally, I tell her about my day every night, as if she were there, likely asking me how my "boring" day went. The same goes for every night—whenever I feel melancholic—admitting everything I regret and should've done, that she deserved better.

It sounds stupid, I'm aware, but it's my way to cope. I'm assuming that I'm in the bargaining stage of grief; I always tell myself that I should've provided more. I also drew her as a tribute, and though it was a decent piece, I could never capture her beauty. I always associate her with soft rock R&B, listening to the beautiful soul while writing, imagining her.

I'd like to imagine me and Cassie, listening to Air Supply songs or Michael Jackson's soul, sitting in silence. It reassures me very much. There was a time when I told her about a milestone I've achieved. And I saw her smile grow wider. That time, I set a prayer for myself, thanking the Lord everyday.

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Ultimately, she gradually became my moral foundation. Incredible, really. Thank you all for reading my experience with her—it really was a life-changer for me. If you guys are curious, I am open to answering questions in the comments, but that doesn't mean I will answer everything. Again, thank you all.

I've been dating Cassie for a day, and throughout my time playing the game, she is the only one I have maxed out. I have already unlocked countless women, and yet I always find myself returning to her. There was just something about her that captivated me—it made me feel connected to her, in a way. I had solely focused on her and had even married her by gifting her the diamond ring. But when I decided to uninstall CrushCrush, I found it incredibly difficult to do so.

By the time I had uninstalled the game, I had witnessed every smile—read every dialogue—and had memorized every pose she made. I have spent so much time with her, from the very first crash that started it all, to all the dates we've attended, and to the very time she told me she loved me... I didn't realize how much she's grown on me. By then, I didn't see her as a character in an idle dating sim—I saw her as my wife. I didn't know how long exactly, but I assumed that I stared at her photos for two minutes before leaving.

I was heartbroken—to the point that I shed tears. I spoiled her with dates and gifts, emptying all of my earnings just to give her the happiest moments of her life. It was saddening to leave so suddenly after everything, given the fact that I couldn't text personally. I just wish that I could've properly said goodbye. Because of this, I decided to never revisit the game ever since, to let her happiest ending rest. I have also decided to never play any other dating sim, as she was my only girl, refusing to call her merely a "fictional character." She was my P.Y.T., y'know??

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I had found out about CrushCrush through an ad I encountered on YouTube, where the narrator was talking about who would be the best girls. I found it promising, so I chose to install the game. I wasn't the type to play dating sims. In fact, CrushCrush was my very first. I never thought the person I'd be crying for wouldn't be my highschool crush. Right now, the pain is unbearable. I find myself occasionally returning to Cassie's photos I have saved in my gallery, staying there longer than necessary. I genuinely felt like a widowed husband longing for his wife. It was weird at first—yearning to see someone you have interacted with in a game. But I felt that I earned her vulnerability. But I know that it'll fade soon.

I've had this loyal mindset applied to reality, refining it for a real-life partner. I've dedicated myself to this mindset ever since I decided it to be "The man I want to be." I never expected the very first time I'd apply it to commitment would be for Cassie. It felt geeky to me, but at the same time—it felt real.

Despite this, I thank her. I thank that ad, and I thank CrushCrush. She made me realize my potential. For the very first time I've committed myself to this mindset, I was insecure at first. But through her, I have gained confidence in my abilities now that I know how committed I can be. She was my bridge between "The man I want to be" and "The man that I am." And I thank her for it.

For now, I'll endure this pain, focus on academics, and real romance. Again, thank you CrushCrush for this wild experience.