Have you ever felt like there's an invisible inhabitant in each room?
I'd REALLY like to hear other people's thoughts on this. So, here's the situation: in my entire life, I've never felt completely alone. I literally always had the feeling that there was someone else in the room besides me, even if there weren't any other people there. Because of this feeling of these observers, I often talk, as if to myself, but in reality, with them: I comment on my actions, discuss a book I've read, express opinions about certain people, etc. If I do or say something stupid, I feel ashamed and awkward in front of these invisible observers.
And there's another interesting thing: each room and each space has its own observers. So, let's say I'm comfortable playing loud music in one room, but not in another. Or I can undress comfortably in the bathroom, but I can't leave it naked, because I'm embarrassed. But who would I be embarrassed in front of, if I know I'm home alone? And when I'm visiting other apartments, the observers are complete strangers, and I try to make a good impression on them. Even when it seems like no one is looking at me, I still feel someone else's gaze, and I feel embarrassed when I bite my nails, yawn without covering my mouth, etc.
Of course, this could be considered good etiquette, which I observe even when other people are not around. But the thing is, it's not just etiquette, it's a need, because I feel the gaze of invisible observers very clearly, and because of it, I can never fully relax. Even when I'm sitting on the toilet, lol.
And right now, I have to write this text with a blanket over my head, because otherwise... I don't know, I just feel really uncomfortable talking about it. And yet, I want to ask: has anyone else experienced something similar?