Does anyone have practical tips on how to cope with grief, particularly a traumatic loss like suicide of a family member, while working in this crazy job?
What’s funny is that I handled things much better at the beginning. I took time off and then got fully immersed in my work once I came back. Flash forward several months later, however, and everything is falling apart. I get stuck in cycles where I can’t stop thinking about the loss. I have a tendency to ruminate. The constant intrusive thoughts, flashbacks (sometimes graphic), worries about my family, memories of the person I lost, are torturing me. Some nights I don’t get any sleep at all. I am a junior who desperately want to be good at my job and make good impressions, but it’s hard when I spend hours a day dealing with these distractions.
I feel motivation to do certain tasks and do work for certain people, but other times and other days, like today, I simply cannot focus without having constant thoughts of the death.
I know I probably need professional help, but for right now I’m just hoping to hear from anyone who has advice. I’m hoping this passes with time, but it seems to only be getting worse.