Feeling like a failure
Hello everyone. I am running the NYC marathon Nov 1st. I just did my last long run, was supposed to be 22, but the rain gave me blisters so I cut it to 20 miles.
I just felt so weak throughout the whole thing. I had to walk a few times starting at like mile 13. Very short breaks, or bathroom breaks. But I pretty much walked a little bit from every mile very briefly(some of it from stop lights and crosswalks) I got it done, but now I’m very much doubting my ability to do a marathon. How in the world am I gonna do 6 more.
My moving time was 3:23:51, elapsed time 3:57:42.
I don’t know what happened but I was DRAGGING. And I’m someone who used to never have to stop when running. So it really has me felling like this run didn’t count and I’m doomed lol.
This entire training block has honestly felt like crap. I never really improved my fitness from taking a year off running. I have just felt awful and out of shape the whole time, despite doing the runs (only missing a few due to injury or illness/life)
I know pre-race doubt is normal. But I’m kinda spiraling lol.