Falling hard for someone who doesn't feel the same
So context, I'm a student in an all boy's school. I transferred here in the second semester but i have been visiting the present school I'm now in since the first semester just to get a feel for it. Konti lang students so most if not all students know each other. I've met a few of them and made friends even before i transferred.
So second semester rolls in and I get to meet my classmates, there was one guy who always stood out to me and eventually naging friends kami. I've always been detached and distant but somehow he became clingy towards me like how he treats our other classmates, initially i thought nothing about it. Sabi ko he's straight wala yan he just is clingy by nature.
Overtime I noticed that he would always approach me pag ako lang mag isa, tatambay sya where I am, then he'd always stand so close to me tas ilalagay nya hand nya near mine, yung pag igagalaw ko konti pinky finger ko nakapatong na yung daliri ko sa kanyang kamay. Then he has a nickname for me na its basically my nickname but with added syllables.
One time i fell asleep sa library, sa couch with a lot of other students sitting. Pag gising ko nagulat ako nasa tabi kona sya like puno ang couch but he still sat next to me while I was sleeping. A little while later I was reading, at another chair, he just went up to me, sat next to me, then he just laid down next to me na nakapatong ulo nya sa arm ko. Awkward but kinda sweet. Hinayaan ko lang, no reaction since yun nga all boys school. Mabubully kami
Next thing I know hes ignoring me all of a sudden then he gets close to another guy. Im all jealous and stuff kasi dati ako yun nasa lugar ng other guy e. So I started ignoring him as well. But then bumalik ang sweetness nya sakin like after a while. But when I started reciprocating parang nag distance sya ulit sakin.
IDK if may something silang dalawa, it doesn't seem like it. But sometimes they're touchy pag sila lang dalawa and pag dumaan ako since maliit nga ang school, they'd just look at me while they're being sweet. Delusional man but it seems like sinasadya nila.
Idk what to think. But I know I'm falling hard for the dude. Idk. Thoughts?
Sorry medyo rant narin kasi on my part.